Wad up yo?
the BIG move took an unsuspecting and unnecessary turn. I just settled in on thursday, which was yesterday. I finished setting in- setting up the room, making it as homey as possible. Then, my dad was like, 'I don't like the place' He was not happy with the place. Even thought it was really near uni.
We had an argument about it. he didn't raise his voice or anything, but he did give me an ultimatum, or a statement to that effect. You lot know what I'm like when I'm peeved off about something...I had to grit my teeth, seal my lips in order no to say or do anything thing that i will regret or cause me to be chopped up and cooked into curry.
So, last night, I had to make a call to JoE...THANK GOD- her mom's gonna let me bunk in the spare room. Gosh, what will i do with out you Jo! :)
So now, I have to move, yet again...
Anyways, I haven't done any studying, thanks to the move and the fact that my dad's in town. So, I'm hoping and praying that I haven't missed anything- uni wise
Friday, September 5, 2008
Tuesday, September 2, 2008
To Julia:
I'm so envious that you get to make a quick run for home every break. I'm stuck at school trying to complete 2 assignments worth 10%ea! The best part is the jounrla articles I need are all from 1974, '75, '89 that sort of era which means they're not on the Net and I've to scour the library reference section for the articles I need. You have No Idea. Anyway, shame you can't go to the finals -- Jon would have loved to see you :) Ah well, enjoy it there in Sunny Sg.
To Min:
Hey babe, how's it going with the Big Move? I haven't heard from you so I'm assuming it's been pretty hectic for you. But you're moving in with nice people (assumption) so you should be all settled in by tomorrow or Thu or something. Text me again when you're all right and ready. Ok?
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So, that's pretty much my life during the break now. It's pretty ironic, really. It's not a real break. How can it be considered a break when all I'm still doing is work?! I need a Boost Juice and some retail therapy but I won't be getting none of that until the end of this month. I have to ensure I complete all the intrasemester assessments first.
SIGH.
I'm so envious that you get to make a quick run for home every break. I'm stuck at school trying to complete 2 assignments worth 10%ea! The best part is the jounrla articles I need are all from 1974, '75, '89 that sort of era which means they're not on the Net and I've to scour the library reference section for the articles I need. You have No Idea. Anyway, shame you can't go to the finals -- Jon would have loved to see you :) Ah well, enjoy it there in Sunny Sg.
To Min:
Hey babe, how's it going with the Big Move? I haven't heard from you so I'm assuming it's been pretty hectic for you. But you're moving in with nice people (assumption) so you should be all settled in by tomorrow or Thu or something. Text me again when you're all right and ready. Ok?
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So, that's pretty much my life during the break now. It's pretty ironic, really. It's not a real break. How can it be considered a break when all I'm still doing is work?! I need a Boost Juice and some retail therapy but I won't be getting none of that until the end of this month. I have to ensure I complete all the intrasemester assessments first.
SIGH.
Tuesday, August 26, 2008
When the panic sets in
IGNORE THIS POST IF YOU WANT TO REMAIN HAPPY
When I woke up today, I had THE feeling- F*ck
When I went to work, it was still there- F*ck
It's only week 4, and the feeling's gotten hold.
I've got a bad BAD feeling, it's one of those days, Crystal said everyone goes through that one day.
I'm trying to get that feeling to go away, I can't. I have a feeling I won't make it this sem. *nervour laugh.
Can someone just run me down already! What the f*ck! I'm a screw up aren't I? If I fail this sem, I don't know what I'm to do. I sat down at home this morning, after work, just for 5 mins, thinking- of a back-up plan. Got nothing. I sould be studying or something, but I just seem to not know where to start (I KNOW I'VE GOTTA START SOMEWHERE)
When I meet people, and they ask me what I usually do, I'm reluctant to say that I'm a f*cking law student. Because most people will go 'Ohhhhhhhh' I cringe, inwards- DRY RENCH!
I am the best example of what a Law student is NOT.
Yes yes, today, I'm just gonna rant rant rant rant, maybe by tonight I'll be happy, maybe I'll get over this retarded shit! Excuse the crude language ladies and gents, for I am in no mood to hide it.
I will be ok, won't I?
When I woke up today, I had THE feeling- F*ck
When I went to work, it was still there- F*ck
It's only week 4, and the feeling's gotten hold.
I've got a bad BAD feeling, it's one of those days, Crystal said everyone goes through that one day.
I'm trying to get that feeling to go away, I can't. I have a feeling I won't make it this sem. *nervour laugh.
Can someone just run me down already! What the f*ck! I'm a screw up aren't I? If I fail this sem, I don't know what I'm to do. I sat down at home this morning, after work, just for 5 mins, thinking- of a back-up plan. Got nothing. I sould be studying or something, but I just seem to not know where to start (I KNOW I'VE GOTTA START SOMEWHERE)
When I meet people, and they ask me what I usually do, I'm reluctant to say that I'm a f*cking law student. Because most people will go 'Ohhhhhhhh' I cringe, inwards- DRY RENCH!
I am the best example of what a Law student is NOT.
Yes yes, today, I'm just gonna rant rant rant rant, maybe by tonight I'll be happy, maybe I'll get over this retarded shit! Excuse the crude language ladies and gents, for I am in no mood to hide it.
I will be ok, won't I?
Thursday, August 21, 2008
Wednesdays always leave me exhausted but it's my favourite weekday this semester. There's 2 hours of Animal Systems lectures and 3 hours of practical animal handling down at the Vet Farm in the arvo. What more could I ask for.
It was all about the horse industy yesterday during lectures. Clearly, horses play a very big role in the economy of Australia and are used for many purposes - working, sporting, entertainment, showing, war (at least when big technologies didn't exist) etc. We all had a little laugh when the lecturer said, "And we do see some miniature horse owners come in ..." and he stops short to clarify, "I meant miniature horses, not miniature owners ..." The lecture theatre burst into a complementary laugh but the lecturer took it so much upon himself that when he tried to continue his lecture, he kept bursting into fits of laughter which influenced everybody else to laugh with him. I laughed too but only because he was laughing so if he didn't stop, I couldn't stop either!
So, anyway, the amazing part about Wednesdays is the farm practicals. I did horse handling last week which involved haltering a horse from the paddock and leading it into a crusher. We learnt many things thereafter: putting on a bit, tying slipknots, farriering (holding a hoof) and trotting a horse. It was so much fun. One of the best bits is that horses don't get you dirty. My overalls were squeak clean at the end of the session. I just wished I had more time to try haltering other horses to practise.
Yesterday was sheep handling. Unlike horses that are quite confident (size maybe?) sheep just don't get any used to humans no matter how much they were handled before. Unlike horses, halters and leads aren't enough to control and restrain a sheep. So it was a rather awkward experience trying to handle them and getting them to Stay Put.
Tasks:
4. Bloods
It was pretty tough for me because the sheep were skittish but just before you get ahold of them. When I did and by the time I was done with them, my feet were cramping. A lot. And it took a lot of brute strength (at least where I'm concerned) to position one and let it allow me to do what I had to. My best task had to be taking bloods - I had it at one try and did it bleed. I'm just glad I didn't have to poke the poor thing too many times. THAT would make ME upset.
My arms are aching!!!
It was all about the horse industy yesterday during lectures. Clearly, horses play a very big role in the economy of Australia and are used for many purposes - working, sporting, entertainment, showing, war (at least when big technologies didn't exist) etc. We all had a little laugh when the lecturer said, "And we do see some miniature horse owners come in ..." and he stops short to clarify, "I meant miniature horses, not miniature owners ..." The lecture theatre burst into a complementary laugh but the lecturer took it so much upon himself that when he tried to continue his lecture, he kept bursting into fits of laughter which influenced everybody else to laugh with him. I laughed too but only because he was laughing so if he didn't stop, I couldn't stop either!
So, anyway, the amazing part about Wednesdays is the farm practicals. I did horse handling last week which involved haltering a horse from the paddock and leading it into a crusher. We learnt many things thereafter: putting on a bit, tying slipknots, farriering (holding a hoof) and trotting a horse. It was so much fun. One of the best bits is that horses don't get you dirty. My overalls were squeak clean at the end of the session. I just wished I had more time to try haltering other horses to practise.
Yesterday was sheep handling. Unlike horses that are quite confident (size maybe?) sheep just don't get any used to humans no matter how much they were handled before. Unlike horses, halters and leads aren't enough to control and restrain a sheep. So it was a rather awkward experience trying to handle them and getting them to Stay Put.
Tasks:
1. Restrain sheep
flank method (grab some skin and flop)
farmer's method (face to flank; press the rump)
shearer's method (lift and sit)
buckle method (face to flank; buckle a hindleg)
2. Tie sheep
triangle method (measure length of sheep; tie a knot; triangularize hindlegs and head)
lasso method (tie all 4 legs together)
4. Bloods
It was pretty tough for me because the sheep were skittish but just before you get ahold of them. When I did and by the time I was done with them, my feet were cramping. A lot. And it took a lot of brute strength (at least where I'm concerned) to position one and let it allow me to do what I had to. My best task had to be taking bloods - I had it at one try and did it bleed. I'm just glad I didn't have to poke the poor thing too many times. THAT would make ME upset.
My arms are aching!!!
Bitten too much...choking!
I realise that I want to do absolutely EVERYTHING!
1. study
2. work
3. surf
4. moot (Law competition)
5. gym
6. basketball
7. youth camp
...
I enrolled for the moot comp, but they didn't email me the question, so I'm gonna take it as a sign from the big man upstairs that 'hey, easy'. LOL
Surfing is a go, but I promised daddy-o, that I won't let it affect my studies (not doing a good job of that at the moment).
Julia- I want to go white water rafting, but maybe not this time, my hands are tied at the moment.
I was suppose to be a camp captain on a youth camp that Nisha and I are volunteering for. it was suppose to be 2nd week of Oct, Tuesday to Friday. But I've got an ethics presentation on wednesday. BUMMER! So, I was looking at it again, I realise that if I can finish my assignments that I have to hand in that Friday, then...I CAN GO!!! The co-ord said that there will be a car leaving Perth on Thursday, plus, he'll need extra help on Thursday, because of the TREASURE HUNT!!! in search of the gold arrrrrr!
Gosh, this is so exciting, I can hardly wait...we're going to camp WOOHOOO!!!!!
Nish, if you are reading this, surf's gonna be at Scarborough, waves at Leighton ain't gonna be big enough. So i'll see you at Wellington bus port just before 8am.
1. study
2. work
3. surf
4. moot (Law competition)
5. gym
6. basketball
7. youth camp
...
I enrolled for the moot comp, but they didn't email me the question, so I'm gonna take it as a sign from the big man upstairs that 'hey, easy'. LOL
Surfing is a go, but I promised daddy-o, that I won't let it affect my studies (not doing a good job of that at the moment).
Julia- I want to go white water rafting, but maybe not this time, my hands are tied at the moment.
I was suppose to be a camp captain on a youth camp that Nisha and I are volunteering for. it was suppose to be 2nd week of Oct, Tuesday to Friday. But I've got an ethics presentation on wednesday. BUMMER! So, I was looking at it again, I realise that if I can finish my assignments that I have to hand in that Friday, then...I CAN GO!!! The co-ord said that there will be a car leaving Perth on Thursday, plus, he'll need extra help on Thursday, because of the TREASURE HUNT!!! in search of the gold arrrrrr!
Gosh, this is so exciting, I can hardly wait...we're going to camp WOOHOOO!!!!!
Nish, if you are reading this, surf's gonna be at Scarborough, waves at Leighton ain't gonna be big enough. So i'll see you at Wellington bus port just before 8am.
Thursday, August 14, 2008
hi everyone!
wow, julia, you're really into this white water rafting ay. well, go for it if you're up to it. you definitely deserve a full-on adrenaline vacation to lose all that frustration during your last break. lose it and step back into life with everything you got and more :) i don't think i can join you. i'm so in the middle of everything nowadays i can't even get my dates right.
on the contrary, i'm so into horses! i had a horse handling practical ytd and it was AWESOME (trademark of Nisha) it was phenomenal! i so want to have a horse and learn more about horses and treat horses now. they are so big and so cheeky and i'll tell you about the "cheeky" part when i see you all soon. they are amazing and jon's sick of hearing me sing their praises since last night. haha ... THAT'S how much i love them now.
ok, i love you all!! i gotta get to class now. physiology on embryonic development. oh, we've been learning about penises in the last 2 weeks. and dissected a pig penis. yep. haha ... i think everyone is disgusted now.
i'll stop here.
p.s. Jo, Single and Available is a good status ;)
wow, julia, you're really into this white water rafting ay. well, go for it if you're up to it. you definitely deserve a full-on adrenaline vacation to lose all that frustration during your last break. lose it and step back into life with everything you got and more :) i don't think i can join you. i'm so in the middle of everything nowadays i can't even get my dates right.
on the contrary, i'm so into horses! i had a horse handling practical ytd and it was AWESOME (trademark of Nisha) it was phenomenal! i so want to have a horse and learn more about horses and treat horses now. they are so big and so cheeky and i'll tell you about the "cheeky" part when i see you all soon. they are amazing and jon's sick of hearing me sing their praises since last night. haha ... THAT'S how much i love them now.
ok, i love you all!! i gotta get to class now. physiology on embryonic development. oh, we've been learning about penises in the last 2 weeks. and dissected a pig penis. yep. haha ... i think everyone is disgusted now.
i'll stop here.
p.s. Jo, Single and Available is a good status ;)
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
hey! look what i found *beams* ta da!!!
White Water Rafting on the Murray River
click HERE for more information.
apparently its quite full on the weekends during the peak season which is like NOW. so anybody interested? gotta book in advance. please let me know yeah? its $155 per person, transport from perth included. i'm looking at 30th August, gonna book by the 15th i hope. please let me know ASAP! thank you :)
White Water Rafting on the Murray River
Experience the thrill of white water rafting in this full day adventure on grade four rapids! On this trip, adventure seekers can expect challenging rapids, scenic jarrah forests and a whole lot of fun. So what are you waiting for – get rafting on the Murray River, just 1.5 hours south of Perth!
Get ready for a big day out white water rafting as you float through peaceful jarrah forests, then plunge down grade four rapids with names like 'Termination', 'Gobbleguts' and 'Time Warp'. All of this is just 1.5 hours south of Perth on the majestic Murray River.
This is by far WA's most popular rafting trip and is a must for all adventure seekers.
We provide wet suits, a picnic lunch and transport from Perth.
PLEASE NOTE: This experience is only available from June to October.
click HERE for more information.
apparently its quite full on the weekends during the peak season which is like NOW. so anybody interested? gotta book in advance. please let me know yeah? its $155 per person, transport from perth included. i'm looking at 30th August, gonna book by the 15th i hope. please let me know ASAP! thank you :)
Monday, August 11, 2008
update on small jojo
HEY GALZ, it has been such a loooooooooong time since i update on this blog. *embarrassed* how's uni so far? I am really enjoying it this sem! I am doing all my fav units! hee...
Anyway, a little update on my love life! I am totally outta my "unstable" relationship with EJ(in s'pore). Damn! I still can't be sure whether I really like him. Then there is this guy whom I know from work who is also younger than me. He asked me out for movies but i rejected, but he still called me to talk one night. After that night, he was "gone". I did not hear from him until last friday when he drop by my workplace to look for his dad (the baker in the bakery I am working). anywayz, i am officially single again! (but feels the same when I was with Ej...haha)
oh yeah, is the grad ball still on?
Anyway, a little update on my love life! I am totally outta my "unstable" relationship with EJ(in s'pore). Damn! I still can't be sure whether I really like him. Then there is this guy whom I know from work who is also younger than me. He asked me out for movies but i rejected, but he still called me to talk one night. After that night, he was "gone". I did not hear from him until last friday when he drop by my workplace to look for his dad (the baker in the bakery I am working). anywayz, i am officially single again! (but feels the same when I was with Ej...haha)
oh yeah, is the grad ball still on?
Monday, August 4, 2008
Longing for the Ocean
I had today off- AWESOME. I'll be starting lectures tomorrow. The curious thing is that I'm actually feeling a little nervous. Maybe it's the last shock wave from almost not making it to this semester.
I'm always harping and complaining loudly and sarcastically how I don't have a car and all. I finally realised why I've been mesirable and snappy about this issue. It's not about the car- it's about the freedom that I get. The feeling of absolute bliss that words fail to describe. I finally realised ( I think with the grace of God) that there is something better- Surfing.
Yes, Surfing- it's the perfect trinity- you, God and the ocean.
It's like a doctor's appointment, only that the 'doctor' lets you take as many sugar-free lollies and you leave with the mental note that you'll be back again.
I'm always harping and complaining loudly and sarcastically how I don't have a car and all. I finally realised why I've been mesirable and snappy about this issue. It's not about the car- it's about the freedom that I get. The feeling of absolute bliss that words fail to describe. I finally realised ( I think with the grace of God) that there is something better- Surfing.
Yes, Surfing- it's the perfect trinity- you, God and the ocean.
It's like a doctor's appointment, only that the 'doctor' lets you take as many sugar-free lollies and you leave with the mental note that you'll be back again.
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
School starts tomorrow, and weirdly, I just can't wait. At least with school, I'd have something to keep me busy.
I just got a new tuition assignment, nearer my house. Phew! And, I realised that teaching sec kids is so much easier than pri kids. Honestly, I don't even like teaching and the only reason why I'm still doing it is for the moolah! heh!
A few days ago, I got drunk and real high, for the very first time. An accomplishment for me I must say! And I have to admit, it was a goooddddd feeling!
My cat recently got into yet another fight and his leg swelled up to 3 times its normal size. It's returned to its original size now, with the help of the meds but he still limps. The vet shaved his leg, and I actually like the naked look of the cat. Ha.!
Been going out a lot lately, to fill the void. And, I've become really broke now. Damn!
My laptop is slowing dying on me. It hangs, alot! And sometimes, it just shuts down on its own. Time to think of getting a new one!
I realised that it's hard to cut someone out of your life completely, especially when that person just doesn't want to leave. But when something is over, it's over, no?
Anyway, have a good semester everyone, it looks real packed for me! Essh!
I just got a new tuition assignment, nearer my house. Phew! And, I realised that teaching sec kids is so much easier than pri kids. Honestly, I don't even like teaching and the only reason why I'm still doing it is for the moolah! heh!
A few days ago, I got drunk and real high, for the very first time. An accomplishment for me I must say! And I have to admit, it was a goooddddd feeling!
My cat recently got into yet another fight and his leg swelled up to 3 times its normal size. It's returned to its original size now, with the help of the meds but he still limps. The vet shaved his leg, and I actually like the naked look of the cat. Ha.!
Been going out a lot lately, to fill the void. And, I've become really broke now. Damn!
My laptop is slowing dying on me. It hangs, alot! And sometimes, it just shuts down on its own. Time to think of getting a new one!
I realised that it's hard to cut someone out of your life completely, especially when that person just doesn't want to leave. But when something is over, it's over, no?
Anyway, have a good semester everyone, it looks real packed for me! Essh!
Friday, July 25, 2008
people i need a life. please help me find one, thank you very much.
my one month break is over. i find that it ends too abruptly. i havent even done anything productive yet! this has got to be my worst hols ever. i've been couping myself up at home 3/4 time and am just wasting my life away. - so sorry jo, havent seen any bell so far.. anyway.. too many things have happened in this unspeakably short timespan of 1 month. too much for me to digest. horrible things. which is why i chose to hide in my safe little room at home most of the time. its a looong story. but in short, i need a life. next semester, i'm gonna go all way out to enjoy myself. i deserve it. play hard and of course work hard *winkwink* i still havent gotten over my 50 marks scare. and then i'm definitely going to sydney next winter to visit jade and genevieve. by the way, anybody gone clubbing in perth before? i havent. and am thinking of trying cuz it just daunted on to me that i've only got 3 more semesters to "thoroughly explore" perth. oh and i cant make it on 29th july cuz i would have started uni already. but if you guys are gonna watch a movie, heath ledger was splendid in batman if you havent already heard :)
my one month break is over. i find that it ends too abruptly. i havent even done anything productive yet! this has got to be my worst hols ever. i've been couping myself up at home 3/4 time and am just wasting my life away. - so sorry jo, havent seen any bell so far.. anyway.. too many things have happened in this unspeakably short timespan of 1 month. too much for me to digest. horrible things. which is why i chose to hide in my safe little room at home most of the time. its a looong story. but in short, i need a life. next semester, i'm gonna go all way out to enjoy myself. i deserve it. play hard and of course work hard *winkwink* i still havent gotten over my 50 marks scare. and then i'm definitely going to sydney next winter to visit jade and genevieve. by the way, anybody gone clubbing in perth before? i havent. and am thinking of trying cuz it just daunted on to me that i've only got 3 more semesters to "thoroughly explore" perth. oh and i cant make it on 29th july cuz i would have started uni already. but if you guys are gonna watch a movie, heath ledger was splendid in batman if you havent already heard :)
I think I've lost a good friend
I went online today,
I wanted to find him.
A friend I had,
a friend I miss.
I looked through the list,
His name was not there.
I typed his name in full,
none seemed to exist.
It's been awhile
since we've spoken.
It's been too long gone,
I'm dazed with nostalgia.
If I ever see him again,
It would seem like a dream.
All time will stop,
as I embrace a friend I'd lost.
MASTER OF RANDOMESS
I wanted to find him.
A friend I had,
a friend I miss.
I looked through the list,
His name was not there.
I typed his name in full,
none seemed to exist.
It's been awhile
since we've spoken.
It's been too long gone,
I'm dazed with nostalgia.
If I ever see him again,
It would seem like a dream.
All time will stop,
as I embrace a friend I'd lost.
MASTER OF RANDOMESS
Monday, July 21, 2008
Paddle in the kiddy pool
It's been awhile since I've blogged...I know...anyways, Nisha, i am still in one piece...
Anyways, weather in Singapore hasn't been the sunniest or whatever.
I'm getting a little jumpy cuz the results for my supplemetary paper's not out yet. So yeah, Sitting around here, waiting for the damn results, sucks. I swear to God, if I ever have to sit for a Supp paper every again, I will shoot myself. Provided I find a gun first....
I bet you guys are wondering what's goin' on with my post's title, anyways, today, I went swimming- in a pool. It's been awhile. I mean it's not a Kiddy pool per say, it's just a little pool. haha...I'm ranting on aren't I?
Anyways, about the tatt, I didn't bother to hide it. I mean, my parents will find out eventually. My dad spotted it 30 minutes after he met me. I won't go into the nitty gritty detail, but he didn't yell. He just said, "Your mother won't be too happy." I almost collapsed with shock. It's been 4 days, but my mom still hasn't spot it, either she did but she just kept quiet, or she really is... oblivious.
You know that feeling you can't breathe but you are inhaling and exhaling? The feeling of the ground trembling under your feet and it's going to give way any minute?
Then you tell yourself, it's all gonna be ok.
Anyways, weather in Singapore hasn't been the sunniest or whatever.
I'm getting a little jumpy cuz the results for my supplemetary paper's not out yet. So yeah, Sitting around here, waiting for the damn results, sucks. I swear to God, if I ever have to sit for a Supp paper every again, I will shoot myself. Provided I find a gun first....
I bet you guys are wondering what's goin' on with my post's title, anyways, today, I went swimming- in a pool. It's been awhile. I mean it's not a Kiddy pool per say, it's just a little pool. haha...I'm ranting on aren't I?
Anyways, about the tatt, I didn't bother to hide it. I mean, my parents will find out eventually. My dad spotted it 30 minutes after he met me. I won't go into the nitty gritty detail, but he didn't yell. He just said, "Your mother won't be too happy." I almost collapsed with shock. It's been 4 days, but my mom still hasn't spot it, either she did but she just kept quiet, or she really is... oblivious.
You know that feeling you can't breathe but you are inhaling and exhaling? The feeling of the ground trembling under your feet and it's going to give way any minute?
Then you tell yourself, it's all gonna be ok.
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
hiya folks. long time no see.
sorry, it's not that i don't blog. it's that i can't. since it's the holidays, i don't actually have easy WWW access. when i do, it's usually at the clinic but i can't sit for two minutes straight without the phones going off or me having to hold a dog for anal glands. yes, a very glamourous job indeed. however, i'm proud to say that i am very happy with my work at the clinic. i look forward to the days i work - i got more than fortnightly shifts to replace a weekday nurse. anyway, the point is i can only get so much time to check my gmail and maybe pop into facebook once in a blue moon to see who's been sending me requests of all sorts which i honeslty don't give a rat's ass about because i think applications are just annoying. period. excuse me.
anyway, how have y'all been? i see min, nisha and julia have left there typeprints not too long ago. but i'm still quite confused. so who's in perth and who's not?
wait! the ones in singapore. i need a favour. i recently bought a collar for yang but it doesn't come with a bell. stupid design. as if a bell would jack the price of a collar to 50 bucks or something. and i haven't seen anywhere selling bells only here in P. anyway, i will be forever grateful to anybody who can snag a black or silver bell for me. i don't want bells that tinkle. and definitely not christmas ding-dongs. about a size smaller than a marble should do fine. and hopefully there's a little keyring with it or else i won't know how to fit the bell on the collar. i can't sew, y'know. so if someone can buy that for me, that would be brilliant. i love you! really.
julia, it's ironic for a chronic retail therapy patient to give advice to another so i can't help you with the Shopaholic Syndrome. but i was about to ask if anyone wants to hang out after 22 july (supp paper!) i have until 4 august to chill out before 2nd semester starts. except the immediate saturday of which i'm going out with jon because, believe it or not, i haven't seen him since 2 july. by then, i would have not seen him for 3.5 weeks. way to go. test of time. but i'm mostly at work so there's a mutual understanding there. if i wasn't, i think we'd been tearing each other's eyes and ears out. we are very Weird. the capital "W" is not a mistake.
as for supp papers, until now i wake up everyday thinking that was just a dream. it's not real. i mean, i have never failed any paper. sure i've hit 50 right on and i got 49.5 on my intrasemester paper once but it didn't qualify as a fail. if i actually FAILED my anatomy prac paper, it means it was below 45%. that's INSANE! i mean, wha- what the- how- i can't believe it. and i still didn't believe until now.
the paper is in 6 days and i have 6 days to nail this paper. this ... supp paper. i need lots and lots of aspirin right now.
sorry, it's not that i don't blog. it's that i can't. since it's the holidays, i don't actually have easy WWW access. when i do, it's usually at the clinic but i can't sit for two minutes straight without the phones going off or me having to hold a dog for anal glands. yes, a very glamourous job indeed. however, i'm proud to say that i am very happy with my work at the clinic. i look forward to the days i work - i got more than fortnightly shifts to replace a weekday nurse. anyway, the point is i can only get so much time to check my gmail and maybe pop into facebook once in a blue moon to see who's been sending me requests of all sorts which i honeslty don't give a rat's ass about because i think applications are just annoying. period. excuse me.
anyway, how have y'all been? i see min, nisha and julia have left there typeprints not too long ago. but i'm still quite confused. so who's in perth and who's not?
wait! the ones in singapore. i need a favour. i recently bought a collar for yang but it doesn't come with a bell. stupid design. as if a bell would jack the price of a collar to 50 bucks or something. and i haven't seen anywhere selling bells only here in P. anyway, i will be forever grateful to anybody who can snag a black or silver bell for me. i don't want bells that tinkle. and definitely not christmas ding-dongs. about a size smaller than a marble should do fine. and hopefully there's a little keyring with it or else i won't know how to fit the bell on the collar. i can't sew, y'know. so if someone can buy that for me, that would be brilliant. i love you! really.
julia, it's ironic for a chronic retail therapy patient to give advice to another so i can't help you with the Shopaholic Syndrome. but i was about to ask if anyone wants to hang out after 22 july (supp paper!) i have until 4 august to chill out before 2nd semester starts. except the immediate saturday of which i'm going out with jon because, believe it or not, i haven't seen him since 2 july. by then, i would have not seen him for 3.5 weeks. way to go. test of time. but i'm mostly at work so there's a mutual understanding there. if i wasn't, i think we'd been tearing each other's eyes and ears out. we are very Weird. the capital "W" is not a mistake.
as for supp papers, until now i wake up everyday thinking that was just a dream. it's not real. i mean, i have never failed any paper. sure i've hit 50 right on and i got 49.5 on my intrasemester paper once but it didn't qualify as a fail. if i actually FAILED my anatomy prac paper, it means it was below 45%. that's INSANE! i mean, wha- what the- how- i can't believe it. and i still didn't believe until now.
the paper is in 6 days and i have 6 days to nail this paper. this ... supp paper. i need lots and lots of aspirin right now.
Wednesday, July 2, 2008
I finally found out when my supp paper is on (18 july), but what the lecturer told me and the examination office put up on the website is inconsistent. My lecturer said that it'll be 3 hours opened book...but on the web page is says 2 hours closed book...wad the...ah well, I sent her an email so I shall see what she says...
aye...I'm bloggin away randomly cuz I'm in uni, I went to the gym too early so now I'm sitting around waiting for Jo so we can go to lunch.
Should be studing eh? I forgot to bring my books. ok fine, I thought I won't have time in between so I left them at home.
I feeling a little nervous really, I mean like I've got about 2 weeks? To study for the exam, but I don't have a clue where to start, I did organise all my things and made sure my notes are all in order, I've started, but I don't know if I'm on the right track. Ah well, at least I've got a second chance right?
Just this morning, I woke up and the first thought of the day was gotta pack my bag for home I stopped myself- hang on a sec, I ain't going anywhere...random I know. It's quite funny being in the apartment all alone, and I've come to realise that it's always pitch black, well, not really, but I've been trying to save electricity, so I'm keeping lighting to the minimal. I actually felt guilty for leaving the kitchen light on while I was sitting on the couch watching TV, only the TV and the Kitchen light were switched on. Random I know!
I am gonna indulge- I'm going to give myself a treat. :) I am going to buy Supernatural Season 2 boxset. I doubt season 3's is out yet...and when the supp paper is over (Alas!) I will sit there and watch 24/7...play...rewind...freeze..rewind...play...stop...rewind all day long...haha...first, I have to figure out where the tricable that connects the DVD player to the TV went...
Yes, Supernatural will be my ultimate goal :)
Alright then, I shall waste away in randomness, into the random realm of randomness, can you get anymore random than that? I don't know. Randomly, I guess not. :)
aye...I'm bloggin away randomly cuz I'm in uni, I went to the gym too early so now I'm sitting around waiting for Jo so we can go to lunch.
Should be studing eh? I forgot to bring my books. ok fine, I thought I won't have time in between so I left them at home.
I feeling a little nervous really, I mean like I've got about 2 weeks? To study for the exam, but I don't have a clue where to start, I did organise all my things and made sure my notes are all in order, I've started, but I don't know if I'm on the right track. Ah well, at least I've got a second chance right?
Just this morning, I woke up and the first thought of the day was gotta pack my bag for home I stopped myself- hang on a sec, I ain't going anywhere...random I know. It's quite funny being in the apartment all alone, and I've come to realise that it's always pitch black, well, not really, but I've been trying to save electricity, so I'm keeping lighting to the minimal. I actually felt guilty for leaving the kitchen light on while I was sitting on the couch watching TV, only the TV and the Kitchen light were switched on. Random I know!
I am gonna indulge- I'm going to give myself a treat. :) I am going to buy Supernatural Season 2 boxset. I doubt season 3's is out yet...and when the supp paper is over (Alas!) I will sit there and watch 24/7...play...rewind...freeze..rewind...play...stop...rewind all day long...haha...first, I have to figure out where the tricable that connects the DVD player to the TV went...
Yes, Supernatural will be my ultimate goal :)
Alright then, I shall waste away in randomness, into the random realm of randomness, can you get anymore random than that? I don't know. Randomly, I guess not. :)
Monday, June 30, 2008
What Wonderful Timing
Man, I was hoping and praying that they would be able to let me sit for the supp paper earlier or something, cuz I was planning to go home in the last two weeks of July. I emailed the exam guy and he said that if I couldn'tsit for the supp paper in the allocated time, then I will get an F.
Seriously, don't they have defered assessments or some shit like that?
I dunno whether to be pisses or thankful...
Both maybe...
Seriously, I really feel like packing up and going somewhere, anywhere but here...nothing seems to be going on right at all...it almost seems as though all the aspects of my life is slipping away, spiralling out of control.
I like being alone, it gives you time to think, but sometimes, all your thoughts are buzzing in your head all at one go, you can't hear it clearly...
Maybe it's a good thing that my dad thinks (when i say thinks i mean imply) that i'm too stupid to drive, so he's trying to wiggle out of getting me my first car...cuz I would probably pack up and go....somewhere...anywhere but here...
where would I go I hear you ask? I dunno, around...
Honestly, I am a happy person, usually, critical yes, sacrcastic yes, have a sense of dark humour sure, but I am a happy perosn. When they say that laughter is the best medicine, it's true, no doubt about that...and you're working your abs from the inside out...
Well, looks like I'm staying down under until the end of the year... what should I do...I wanna go on another surf trip, but money's a little tight...I'm trying to save up for a deposit on a car...we'll see when we get there...
eff it...I'm off...
Seriously, don't they have defered assessments or some shit like that?
I dunno whether to be pisses or thankful...
Both maybe...
Seriously, I really feel like packing up and going somewhere, anywhere but here...nothing seems to be going on right at all...it almost seems as though all the aspects of my life is slipping away, spiralling out of control.
I like being alone, it gives you time to think, but sometimes, all your thoughts are buzzing in your head all at one go, you can't hear it clearly...
Maybe it's a good thing that my dad thinks (when i say thinks i mean imply) that i'm too stupid to drive, so he's trying to wiggle out of getting me my first car...cuz I would probably pack up and go....somewhere...anywhere but here...
where would I go I hear you ask? I dunno, around...
Honestly, I am a happy person, usually, critical yes, sacrcastic yes, have a sense of dark humour sure, but I am a happy perosn. When they say that laughter is the best medicine, it's true, no doubt about that...and you're working your abs from the inside out...
Well, looks like I'm staying down under until the end of the year... what should I do...I wanna go on another surf trip, but money's a little tight...I'm trying to save up for a deposit on a car...we'll see when we get there...
eff it...I'm off...
Sunday, June 29, 2008
busy bee
alright, here's one of the few rare entries of mine. sorry for the lack of updates, i've got a personal blog and it feels kinda weird to repeat myself in 2 places and i could write different things in both sides but i would want everything there so that leaves with nothing here haha but anyway here i am now and i'll try to write more often :)
i'm back in the tiny and horribly humid sunny island! touched down yesterday and arrived home looking my ugliest (like how we all do with 3 hours of sleep a day + a paper on that very arvo + a whole lot of movies on the midnight flight heh heh) to a whole bunch of people cuz it was the day of my 'gugu's' wedding and she lives with me. i dozed off halfway through the wedding and was terribly embarrassed. i was sooo tired, i turned on my laptop when i got home and left it on my lap. while staring at the screen for it to start up, i actually fell asleep within that THREE minutes. geez.
oh and i shall not talk about my exams cuz i just feel so depressed and guilty whenever i think of my parents' expressions if i told them i'd be able to graduate only 2 years later because i failed my units and have to retake them for a semester which i'm extremely convinced i would cuz my exams totally killed me. but at the same time i'm also hoping for a miracle that maybe half the cohort would fail forcing them to scale muahahaha so for any of you reading i'll give a treat at a place you name if i pass ALL my units ok? :)
its weird but i feel even busier here than in perth with all the exams and shit. i hope it'll only last for the first 2 weeks cuz i really think i deserve to have a break and enjoy my hols and do things like.. bumm around the house from this chair to that sofa to the bed to the dinner table hehe or like.. shopping but thats financially straining considering my mom doesnt give me an allowance ever since my dad settled my everything when i went to perth and the allowance he gives me in perth is like.. enough for the time i live in perth only (i think i'm being ripped off and the damage is quite traumatizing considering my frightening expenditure every month so i shall propose a new arrangement soon) but until then the bottom line is i NEED to find a way to be able to shop and not cringe every time i take a peak at the price tag. any ideas? hehe and then theres the quest to LOSE WEIGHT while feasting on all the good food at the same time haha i need some enlightenment oh oh and i seriously am thinking of going for a brazilian but i'm scaaared :( and i need to get a new phone cuz my pretty pink precious is halfway to its grave and i'm torrnn between the iphone and the prada phone. hmm does anyone realise how random this entry is?
and to be more random, i think i need to grow up a bit. my friend was telling me her goal would be to hit the manager position by the time she was 26. i said i wanted to be able to earn my chanel 2.55 within 2 years of working. neeeeed to grow up haha. alright i'm dead beat after a brunch at a place i've never been to which is near jade's place and a farewell party for a friend whos leaving for melbourne just this evening. and a brunch date with my bestie tomorrow morning and notice its brunch not lunch which means i have to get up early!!! told ya i was busy. lots of love byebye!
i'm back in the tiny and horribly humid sunny island! touched down yesterday and arrived home looking my ugliest (like how we all do with 3 hours of sleep a day + a paper on that very arvo + a whole lot of movies on the midnight flight heh heh) to a whole bunch of people cuz it was the day of my 'gugu's' wedding and she lives with me. i dozed off halfway through the wedding and was terribly embarrassed. i was sooo tired, i turned on my laptop when i got home and left it on my lap. while staring at the screen for it to start up, i actually fell asleep within that THREE minutes. geez.
oh and i shall not talk about my exams cuz i just feel so depressed and guilty whenever i think of my parents' expressions if i told them i'd be able to graduate only 2 years later because i failed my units and have to retake them for a semester which i'm extremely convinced i would cuz my exams totally killed me. but at the same time i'm also hoping for a miracle that maybe half the cohort would fail forcing them to scale muahahaha so for any of you reading i'll give a treat at a place you name if i pass ALL my units ok? :)
its weird but i feel even busier here than in perth with all the exams and shit. i hope it'll only last for the first 2 weeks cuz i really think i deserve to have a break and enjoy my hols and do things like.. bumm around the house from this chair to that sofa to the bed to the dinner table hehe or like.. shopping but thats financially straining considering my mom doesnt give me an allowance ever since my dad settled my everything when i went to perth and the allowance he gives me in perth is like.. enough for the time i live in perth only (i think i'm being ripped off and the damage is quite traumatizing considering my frightening expenditure every month so i shall propose a new arrangement soon) but until then the bottom line is i NEED to find a way to be able to shop and not cringe every time i take a peak at the price tag. any ideas? hehe and then theres the quest to LOSE WEIGHT while feasting on all the good food at the same time haha i need some enlightenment oh oh and i seriously am thinking of going for a brazilian but i'm scaaared :( and i need to get a new phone cuz my pretty pink precious is halfway to its grave and i'm torrnn between the iphone and the prada phone. hmm does anyone realise how random this entry is?
and to be more random, i think i need to grow up a bit. my friend was telling me her goal would be to hit the manager position by the time she was 26. i said i wanted to be able to earn my chanel 2.55 within 2 years of working. neeeeed to grow up haha. alright i'm dead beat after a brunch at a place i've never been to which is near jade's place and a farewell party for a friend whos leaving for melbourne just this evening. and a brunch date with my bestie tomorrow morning and notice its brunch not lunch which means i have to get up early!!! told ya i was busy. lots of love byebye!
effing supplementary paper
I was at home, doing my big cook off and sarah called, she said that the exam results were out...I swear to god, my heart skipped a beat, for a split second, my blood backflowed, my mouth felt as though it was stuffed with sandpaper, I thanked her and said that I would check later. She offered to check it for me, but i declined. My stomach did a flip as a tossed the veg in my pot.
Quick think think...my action plan was to finish cooking, and check the results online and then to clean the entire house (cleaning can be meditative). Good plan.
Do I really want to know the results, I do but I don't. I swear, public speaking in the nude or proposing to prince william would be soooo much easier.
After dragging out what the cook off, I had to face it. So i did, my fingers tingled as I presse the 'on' button and typed on the keyboard.
I did the weridest thing when the page was loading. I shut my eyes but peaked at the loading bar, so I ended up with a half squint thingo.
This was is. I just passed BMS101 and LAW120 I failed PEC140 and I had to do a supp paper for LAW150.
I had mixed emotions. I was glad that I passed what I had to pass but I was peeved off at the same time because I have to do a Supp paper. According to Jo, hers was gonna be on 22 July. With any luck, mine would probably be during the same time. Bugger! original plan: head home in the last two weeks of July, because my sister's concert is going to be in the last weekend.
It's frustrating- when the exams were over, I cleaned m room and organised all my papers. Happily, I filed them away. Now, thanks to that damn supp paper, I hav have to dig it out and study. Thank God it's gonna be a open book exam, but it's going to be 3 hours long.
Anyways, maybe it's a good idea that I haven't got much distraction around me. If you don't include the TV, the gym, books, drawings...then yeah, I'm all set.
Quick think think...my action plan was to finish cooking, and check the results online and then to clean the entire house (cleaning can be meditative). Good plan.
Do I really want to know the results, I do but I don't. I swear, public speaking in the nude or proposing to prince william would be soooo much easier.
After dragging out what the cook off, I had to face it. So i did, my fingers tingled as I presse the 'on' button and typed on the keyboard.
I did the weridest thing when the page was loading. I shut my eyes but peaked at the loading bar, so I ended up with a half squint thingo.
This was is. I just passed BMS101 and LAW120 I failed PEC140 and I had to do a supp paper for LAW150.
I had mixed emotions. I was glad that I passed what I had to pass but I was peeved off at the same time because I have to do a Supp paper. According to Jo, hers was gonna be on 22 July. With any luck, mine would probably be during the same time. Bugger! original plan: head home in the last two weeks of July, because my sister's concert is going to be in the last weekend.
It's frustrating- when the exams were over, I cleaned m room and organised all my papers. Happily, I filed them away. Now, thanks to that damn supp paper, I hav have to dig it out and study. Thank God it's gonna be a open book exam, but it's going to be 3 hours long.
Anyways, maybe it's a good idea that I haven't got much distraction around me. If you don't include the TV, the gym, books, drawings...then yeah, I'm all set.
Saturday, June 28, 2008
Don't waste your time
I see that no one's put up anything yet...then I shall torture you with my mindless word play.
I saw a rainbow today on the train...wait..no...I was on the train, the rainbow was out there..anyways...I wonder if there is something at theother end of th rainbow. Wouldn't it be amazing if ther was? What would we find? I don't think we'll find a pot of gold... Maybe we'll find a house made of candy...that would be interesting.
I'm bored out of my wits, I just got back from work, and now, there is nothing good on...the tv networks really have to put good shows on saturdays...I'm too hyper to read something (shocker there, I'm refusing to read...)
Maybe I can ramble on and on and on and on..then I'll finally settle down and read something. I amde Tiramisu yesterday, and boy, it was a good first attempt...I bought the miniature Tia Maria, it cost me $7! After I made the Tiramisu, I realised that I had to finish it all by myself because Crystal and Nat has gone home sweet home and dear Nisha's gone to Melbourne...haha...DANG! There are other folks, but these are the ones closest in terms of proximity.
Oh I lament! Lament this awful and frustrating situation!
LOL that sounded very dramatic, think OTT (over the top) fainting :)
Ok, I think I'm settled now, I shall read...catch ya suckers later!
I saw a rainbow today on the train...wait..no...I was on the train, the rainbow was out there..anyways...I wonder if there is something at theother end of th rainbow. Wouldn't it be amazing if ther was? What would we find? I don't think we'll find a pot of gold... Maybe we'll find a house made of candy...that would be interesting.
I'm bored out of my wits, I just got back from work, and now, there is nothing good on...the tv networks really have to put good shows on saturdays...I'm too hyper to read something (shocker there, I'm refusing to read...)
Maybe I can ramble on and on and on and on..then I'll finally settle down and read something. I amde Tiramisu yesterday, and boy, it was a good first attempt...I bought the miniature Tia Maria, it cost me $7! After I made the Tiramisu, I realised that I had to finish it all by myself because Crystal and Nat has gone home sweet home and dear Nisha's gone to Melbourne...haha...DANG! There are other folks, but these are the ones closest in terms of proximity.
Oh I lament! Lament this awful and frustrating situation!
LOL that sounded very dramatic, think OTT (over the top) fainting :)
Ok, I think I'm settled now, I shall read...catch ya suckers later!
What's a Dream without a Struggle?
An interesteing question don't you think? What is a dream without a struggle- Let's break it down: what is a dream? what is a struggle?
According to my little handy dandy Oxford dictionary,
A dream is: 1) a series of images and feelings that occur in your mind while you are asleep. 2) A long-held ambition or ideal 3) informal A wonderful or perfect person or thing.
A struggle is: 1) make great effort to get free. 2)try hard to do something. 3) make your way with difficulty...
So a dream without a struggle is an ambition without the hard work. this leads to my next point, which is- if you DON'T struggle, you will never realise the dream or apreciate it when you finally reach the long-held ambition or ideal.
What if the struggle is really testing the limits? What is it's really pushing you over the edge? What if one more poke at the ribs will send you head first over the cliff and into the jaggered rocks and crashing waves.
This is what waiting for those bloody results feel like right now. I know they are a couple of days away, and I did what I could for the exams. What else could I possibly hope for?
Yeah, One more thing- A divine intervention!
We were watching Evan Almightly the other day (at the sleepover) and there were so many points of the movie that were really relavant. (you must be thinking, "C'mon, it's a freaking movie!" I'd say, "Movies are a reflection of life- just distorted")
The bits that struck me the most was that trials and challenges were a way that God shows us that he loves us. And when we pray for something, like peace, God doesn't give peace, he gives us the opportunity to choose peace.
I just thought that they were really good points. It brings about a sense of relief and comfort even. But with that, there is also a sense of doom. You can't help but wonder, is there any more to come? Will the big man upstairs put me through more than this?
This is the part where most people, certainly me, say, 'Just kill me already, get it over a done with!'
I am not a religious person, as compared to others. I do talk about God, but I am no saint. I do skip the rare services once in a blue moon (What's the point of going when you're gonna be tuned out?) I swear my arse off and sometimes, that actually scares me and if I want to, I can have the foulest mouth in the entire universe, saying the most hurtful things. I am no saint, but I believe that the Big man upstairs has got a plan of all of us, the contents- classified.
Sometimes I think the way he organises the universe is on a need-to-know organisation system. If you need to know, he'll tell you...no actually scratch that, he'll give you cryptic clues and you go figure.
At this point, you must be wondering why did I go from dreams and struggles to God. Well, my dear friends, I don't know, but I have a feeling they intertwine.
According to my little handy dandy Oxford dictionary,
A dream is: 1) a series of images and feelings that occur in your mind while you are asleep. 2) A long-held ambition or ideal 3) informal A wonderful or perfect person or thing.
A struggle is: 1) make great effort to get free. 2)try hard to do something. 3) make your way with difficulty...
So a dream without a struggle is an ambition without the hard work. this leads to my next point, which is- if you DON'T struggle, you will never realise the dream or apreciate it when you finally reach the long-held ambition or ideal.
What if the struggle is really testing the limits? What is it's really pushing you over the edge? What if one more poke at the ribs will send you head first over the cliff and into the jaggered rocks and crashing waves.
This is what waiting for those bloody results feel like right now. I know they are a couple of days away, and I did what I could for the exams. What else could I possibly hope for?
Yeah, One more thing- A divine intervention!
We were watching Evan Almightly the other day (at the sleepover) and there were so many points of the movie that were really relavant. (you must be thinking, "C'mon, it's a freaking movie!" I'd say, "Movies are a reflection of life- just distorted")
The bits that struck me the most was that trials and challenges were a way that God shows us that he loves us. And when we pray for something, like peace, God doesn't give peace, he gives us the opportunity to choose peace.
I just thought that they were really good points. It brings about a sense of relief and comfort even. But with that, there is also a sense of doom. You can't help but wonder, is there any more to come? Will the big man upstairs put me through more than this?
This is the part where most people, certainly me, say, 'Just kill me already, get it over a done with!'
I am not a religious person, as compared to others. I do talk about God, but I am no saint. I do skip the rare services once in a blue moon (What's the point of going when you're gonna be tuned out?) I swear my arse off and sometimes, that actually scares me and if I want to, I can have the foulest mouth in the entire universe, saying the most hurtful things. I am no saint, but I believe that the Big man upstairs has got a plan of all of us, the contents- classified.
Sometimes I think the way he organises the universe is on a need-to-know organisation system. If you need to know, he'll tell you...no actually scratch that, he'll give you cryptic clues and you go figure.
At this point, you must be wondering why did I go from dreams and struggles to God. Well, my dear friends, I don't know, but I have a feeling they intertwine.
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
If only I had Super powers !?
You keep telling your self that your gonna stay strong and your gonna make it eventually but you don't know when eventually is and that breaks you..The basic essence of human existance is hope.Some times you feel so pointless with out it like nothing ever matter and you might as well just off a cliff and crumple to your death...
Then you ask yourself was it worth it have i done what i wanted to do?
Unfortunately you find your self backing away from the egde not beacuse you don't want it to end but just cause your afraid of your loved one's opinions and then you sit there and cry and wounder how easy things used to be when you we 5 when all you've ever wondered about was what's the next cartoon to watch or how caryons smelt or how to get the candy that was hidden from you...
The good old days...
But i guess that if there's no pain there's no gain and we woun't be the people we are atleast we can look back in 10 years and think about all the times you didn't quite make it and realise that it helped you grow...
Some day i know we'll all achieve greatness.. it just takes time ...
Time ,faith and hope ..
xoxo
nisha
Then you ask yourself was it worth it have i done what i wanted to do?
Unfortunately you find your self backing away from the egde not beacuse you don't want it to end but just cause your afraid of your loved one's opinions and then you sit there and cry and wounder how easy things used to be when you we 5 when all you've ever wondered about was what's the next cartoon to watch or how caryons smelt or how to get the candy that was hidden from you...
The good old days...
But i guess that if there's no pain there's no gain and we woun't be the people we are atleast we can look back in 10 years and think about all the times you didn't quite make it and realise that it helped you grow...
Some day i know we'll all achieve greatness.. it just takes time ...
Time ,faith and hope ..
xoxo
nisha
Monday, June 23, 2008
I can't seem to grasp any sort of control over anything. Mind you, I am not one of those control-freaks, but I do like a sense of structure and discipline. There are so many fundamental factors of my life that are out of control.
I can't even begin to describe the emotional agony that I am feeling right now. Sure, most days, it's smiles and waves, air kisses here, blow kisses there. But I know that there are triggers that make me swing to the other end of the spectrum.
I hate feeling useless, I hate being on a surf board, waiting for a wave in the calm sea. To top it off, when the waves come, I panic. Because I've been waiting for so long, I forget what it's like to prop myself up and go. Then- when I miss that ride back to shore and I'm clinging for life on my board. It effing sucks.
I keep telling myself over and over again that I am WAY better off than other people. I am actually living above the poverty line, no matter how minute the margin maybe- I am still over that poverty line. And hell ya, I am thankful for it.
There are other factors that play on my mind, dancing and prancing, poking at my nerves hopeing to set off the right one, and boom!! LANDMINE
I hate feeling....I hate not being able to take whatever is bothering me, crush it up and throwing it away. It is not concrete, it is sooooo abstract, you know it's there, but you can't hold it and examine it....
I feel like I am free falling from 10,000 ft without a parachute and I am falling fast.
I can't even begin to describe the emotional agony that I am feeling right now. Sure, most days, it's smiles and waves, air kisses here, blow kisses there. But I know that there are triggers that make me swing to the other end of the spectrum.
I hate feeling useless, I hate being on a surf board, waiting for a wave in the calm sea. To top it off, when the waves come, I panic. Because I've been waiting for so long, I forget what it's like to prop myself up and go. Then- when I miss that ride back to shore and I'm clinging for life on my board. It effing sucks.
I keep telling myself over and over again that I am WAY better off than other people. I am actually living above the poverty line, no matter how minute the margin maybe- I am still over that poverty line. And hell ya, I am thankful for it.
There are other factors that play on my mind, dancing and prancing, poking at my nerves hopeing to set off the right one, and boom!! LANDMINE
I hate feeling....I hate not being able to take whatever is bothering me, crush it up and throwing it away. It is not concrete, it is sooooo abstract, you know it's there, but you can't hold it and examine it....
I feel like I am free falling from 10,000 ft without a parachute and I am falling fast.
Friday, June 20, 2008
i can't believe it. after five gruelling years of studying vet, one of the vets at my clinic has decided she didn't want to be a vet after only 6 months in practice. *bangs head on table* i mean, it's entirely her choice and i wish her every happiness in her new career in a drug rep company BUT five frickin' years.
i don't think i can ever convince myself to do something else if i manage to pull through 5 years in vet school. first of all, i would be like, "then why the heck did i spend 5 years of my life trudging in units like anatomy (which i still don't get) and 2 years fighting to get into vet school?!" second, i still don't imagine myself as the save-mankind type. third, ... who cares?! i just don't think that's ever going to happen to me.
not that i want to be a vet for the rest of my life until i turn 96 but certainly, it would be a long-term career for me. plus i'm an obstinate, stubborn as, persistent cow anyway. i see the goal, i head straight for it even if better things were to smack me in the face. i'm saying MAYBE better things. (you won't know it's "better"/"worse" until you try it)
but yeah, the least i won't do is quit vetting after 6 months in practice. for the 5 years i studied my arse off, i think 10-15 years in practice would suffice. in any case, i will still want to be a vet. end of story.
so, how is everyone doing? if i don't hear, i end up guessing. wrongly, most of the time.
i don't think i can ever convince myself to do something else if i manage to pull through 5 years in vet school. first of all, i would be like, "then why the heck did i spend 5 years of my life trudging in units like anatomy (which i still don't get) and 2 years fighting to get into vet school?!" second, i still don't imagine myself as the save-mankind type. third, ... who cares?! i just don't think that's ever going to happen to me.
not that i want to be a vet for the rest of my life until i turn 96 but certainly, it would be a long-term career for me. plus i'm an obstinate, stubborn as, persistent cow anyway. i see the goal, i head straight for it even if better things were to smack me in the face. i'm saying MAYBE better things. (you won't know it's "better"/"worse" until you try it)
but yeah, the least i won't do is quit vetting after 6 months in practice. for the 5 years i studied my arse off, i think 10-15 years in practice would suffice. in any case, i will still want to be a vet. end of story.
so, how is everyone doing? if i don't hear, i end up guessing. wrongly, most of the time.
Sunday, June 15, 2008
LOST
I can totally understand wad you are going through Jo..haha...i'm sooo LOST...i don't know what to do...I mean I do know what to do but I don't know what to do first.
I've got to:
Clean my room
Sort all my shite
Shop
and Pampering!!!
I did some clearing up today...that was because Crystal was biting my ass and pushing me to get it done...:)
ah well...
I've got to:
Clean my room
Sort all my shite
Shop
and Pampering!!!
I did some clearing up today...that was because Crystal was biting my ass and pushing me to get it done...:)
ah well...
Friday, June 13, 2008
ok, i'm being a pain in the ass here but i'm so free now i think i'm wasting away. it's the third day of holidays and i'm just still ... here. doing nothing. nothing to look forward to. no exams, no assignments, no nothing.
well, there was yesterday morning when my sister and i cleaned up the house which we had to postpone because of exams. we woke up at about 8am (! on a freakin' holiday) and started doing chores: vacuum and mop the floors, clean the toilet and bathroom, change the littertrays, tidy the kitchen and lounges, wash and put out the laundry that sort of stuff. and we were done by like 11am.
nothing else to do so we sat down to watch Kyo Kara Mao, one of my sister's anime and it turned out to be quite good.
and i finally have something to do now: min's here! time to gossip. hee!
to those who have upcoming exams, best of luck! :)
well, there was yesterday morning when my sister and i cleaned up the house which we had to postpone because of exams. we woke up at about 8am (! on a freakin' holiday) and started doing chores: vacuum and mop the floors, clean the toilet and bathroom, change the littertrays, tidy the kitchen and lounges, wash and put out the laundry that sort of stuff. and we were done by like 11am.
nothing else to do so we sat down to watch Kyo Kara Mao, one of my sister's anime and it turned out to be quite good.
and i finally have something to do now: min's here! time to gossip. hee!
to those who have upcoming exams, best of luck! :)
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
YES!
i have finished exams for semester one. that is IF i don't end up taking a supplementary paper because i failed in anatomy. or physiology. dammit! the prac paper was so hard! it was totally stupid and crazy! and ...
it doesn't matter how much i complain. it's already over and there's nothing i can do about it. *sigh*
to y'all out there who have yet to sit for exams, ALL THE VERY BEST!
love, jo
i have finished exams for semester one. that is IF i don't end up taking a supplementary paper because i failed in anatomy. or physiology. dammit! the prac paper was so hard! it was totally stupid and crazy! and ...
it doesn't matter how much i complain. it's already over and there's nothing i can do about it. *sigh*
to y'all out there who have yet to sit for exams, ALL THE VERY BEST!
love, jo
Thursday, June 5, 2008
Y'all be my witness
Now the time has come
The music's between us
Though the night seems young
Is at an end
Only change will bring
You out of the darkness
In this moment everything is born again
Reach up for the sunrise
Put your hands into the big sky
You can touch the sunrise
Feel the new day enter your life...
(REACH UP FOR THE) SUNRISE- DURAN DURAN
Ok, i spoke with my dad...and i've decided....
I VOW TO DO ALL I CAN, STUDY ALL I CAN FOR THE UP AND COMING EXAMS, I SHALL STAY ON IN LAW AND WORK MY ASS OFF...IF I SHALL FAIL AGAIN, MY DAD SHALL SEND ME TO CHINA TO BE A SLAVE.
The music's between us
Though the night seems young
Is at an end
Only change will bring
You out of the darkness
In this moment everything is born again
Reach up for the sunrise
Put your hands into the big sky
You can touch the sunrise
Feel the new day enter your life...
(REACH UP FOR THE) SUNRISE- DURAN DURAN
Ok, i spoke with my dad...and i've decided....
I VOW TO DO ALL I CAN, STUDY ALL I CAN FOR THE UP AND COMING EXAMS, I SHALL STAY ON IN LAW AND WORK MY ASS OFF...IF I SHALL FAIL AGAIN, MY DAD SHALL SEND ME TO CHINA TO BE A SLAVE.
well, that was a lot to read for someone who hasn't touched the WWW for a while.
min, i'm glad this blog was an avenue for your thoughts. it's quite clear you need a lot of support to get right again. so i'll be first and give you a Boost (Juice) of moral support. your next Boost Juice original with whatever supplements you require - Confidence, Determination, VitD for healthy bone absorption etc. - is on me. girl, i have every confidence that you will make it just fine in whatever you endeavour. i know decisions are hard to make especially when it's not entirely yourself that you only have to consider. there are folks called "parents", situations called "environment" and pressures called "academic results" that weigh on our shoulders every step of the way. but that's growing up. i think the most important thing is to realise that as long as the step you take allows you to progress and satisfy yourself, go for it. learning and education never stops. no one lives forever but everyone can live it.
so, the END of june is not just around the corner yet. put that form aside and just concentrate on what you currently HAVE TO do: study for exams. forget transferring for a few days. it's not worth being distracted and everything gets partially done. if anything, you were never a half-hearted person :)
and julia, i am so challenging you to a game of BOP IT! the next time we meet. it's war, woman! war, i tell you! haha ...
anyway, here's the latest about me. i died about 2 days ago having not enough sleep then resurrected after sleeping for about 10 hours. i still had a headache but i managed through with housework that was undone over the weekend. i hate it when i know the house was not cleaned. and basically procrastinated my day away yesterday. i still have one more paper next Tue and then i'm done for vet science semester one. i survived! until my results come. shit.
oh yes, about the next sleepover. there are a couple of issues standing in the way now. my parents may be taking turns to come next week and the week after but no one has confirmed any dates with me yet. parents, they tell you to never leave it to the last minute but they do it anyway. the irony. so i might have a sleepover tue thru' wed (10-11 june) next week or wed thru' thu (18-19th) of the following week. whichever it is, i'll keep y'all posted :)
p.s. it's fondue night for sleepover ... yes! happy happy happy glee :D can't. stop. grinning. for. chocolate.
min, i'm glad this blog was an avenue for your thoughts. it's quite clear you need a lot of support to get right again. so i'll be first and give you a Boost (Juice) of moral support. your next Boost Juice original with whatever supplements you require - Confidence, Determination, VitD for healthy bone absorption etc. - is on me. girl, i have every confidence that you will make it just fine in whatever you endeavour. i know decisions are hard to make especially when it's not entirely yourself that you only have to consider. there are folks called "parents", situations called "environment" and pressures called "academic results" that weigh on our shoulders every step of the way. but that's growing up. i think the most important thing is to realise that as long as the step you take allows you to progress and satisfy yourself, go for it. learning and education never stops. no one lives forever but everyone can live it.
so, the END of june is not just around the corner yet. put that form aside and just concentrate on what you currently HAVE TO do: study for exams. forget transferring for a few days. it's not worth being distracted and everything gets partially done. if anything, you were never a half-hearted person :)
and julia, i am so challenging you to a game of BOP IT! the next time we meet. it's war, woman! war, i tell you! haha ...
anyway, here's the latest about me. i died about 2 days ago having not enough sleep then resurrected after sleeping for about 10 hours. i still had a headache but i managed through with housework that was undone over the weekend. i hate it when i know the house was not cleaned. and basically procrastinated my day away yesterday. i still have one more paper next Tue and then i'm done for vet science semester one. i survived! until my results come. shit.
oh yes, about the next sleepover. there are a couple of issues standing in the way now. my parents may be taking turns to come next week and the week after but no one has confirmed any dates with me yet. parents, they tell you to never leave it to the last minute but they do it anyway. the irony. so i might have a sleepover tue thru' wed (10-11 june) next week or wed thru' thu (18-19th) of the following week. whichever it is, i'll keep y'all posted :)
p.s. it's fondue night for sleepover ... yes! happy happy happy glee :D can't. stop. grinning. for. chocolate.
Tuesday, June 3, 2008
MAY DAY MAY DAY MAY DAY
I should be studying, I know, but i just can't,
My heart's pounding a million beats a minute,
I'm about to have a cardiac arrest!!
HELP!!!
I'm this close (pressing thumb and forefinder together) to transferring to Sports Science, but I can't seem to be able to fill up that damn form and hand it in (note: it's gotta be in by the last friday of june) AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!
I guess that's a BIG problem that I have...it's not bed wetting (thank god), but being afraid, afraid to face the consequences. But I hate regret- I despise it, I hate living in the shadow of regret and hearing 'what ifs' echo in my cranial cavity....
faith? where's faith? depleted, gone, poof, nothing, nada. what faith? believe, in what? who?
I can't possibly dictate what and how i'm feeling at the moment, but the thought of venting it out on something anything...not anybody. I need someone to bounce this off. But ultimately, it is myself. I don't want to transfer and end up failing or not liking it, as they always say the grass is greener on the other side. I'm scared that it is all an illusion- tricks and trachery of my mind.
It's funny how I keep saying I don't want this I don't want that. What do I want then? I don't know. Using the words 'want' and 'I' at this frequency is making me rather uncomfortable. I feel like I'm a spoilt and selfish child of the devil. Like the whole world revolves around me. And I clearly know it is not to be.
ARGH...this is really annoying me...I just want this all to end. But I know that in order for appreciation, one must endure suffering. But this has gone way too far now, because not only I am affected, other people are as well, people like you guys, my walking ATM and everyone who reads this and going 'here she goes again'
Precious time wasted. You should be reading something better than this load of nonsensical rubbish and I should be studying for I haven't got much time left. I've got my BMS prac tomorrow.
I guess I'm a person who needs external affirmation, I need people to tell me that I am doing a great (or not so great) job. gosh, now I sound all weak...
argh..i dun give a rat's ass..
My heart's pounding a million beats a minute,
I'm about to have a cardiac arrest!!
HELP!!!
I'm this close (pressing thumb and forefinder together) to transferring to Sports Science, but I can't seem to be able to fill up that damn form and hand it in (note: it's gotta be in by the last friday of june) AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!
I guess that's a BIG problem that I have...it's not bed wetting (thank god), but being afraid, afraid to face the consequences. But I hate regret- I despise it, I hate living in the shadow of regret and hearing 'what ifs' echo in my cranial cavity....
faith? where's faith? depleted, gone, poof, nothing, nada. what faith? believe, in what? who?
I can't possibly dictate what and how i'm feeling at the moment, but the thought of venting it out on something anything...not anybody. I need someone to bounce this off. But ultimately, it is myself. I don't want to transfer and end up failing or not liking it, as they always say the grass is greener on the other side. I'm scared that it is all an illusion- tricks and trachery of my mind.
It's funny how I keep saying I don't want this I don't want that. What do I want then? I don't know. Using the words 'want' and 'I' at this frequency is making me rather uncomfortable. I feel like I'm a spoilt and selfish child of the devil. Like the whole world revolves around me. And I clearly know it is not to be.
ARGH...this is really annoying me...I just want this all to end. But I know that in order for appreciation, one must endure suffering. But this has gone way too far now, because not only I am affected, other people are as well, people like you guys, my walking ATM and everyone who reads this and going 'here she goes again'
Precious time wasted. You should be reading something better than this load of nonsensical rubbish and I should be studying for I haven't got much time left. I've got my BMS prac tomorrow.
I guess I'm a person who needs external affirmation, I need people to tell me that I am doing a great (or not so great) job. gosh, now I sound all weak...
argh..i dun give a rat's ass..
Sunday, June 1, 2008
Profinity...who me?
Dread weighs on my mind,
everytime I think,
it sure isn't kind.
I stare at the walls,
trying to find the window,
where the rays fall.
The yellow rays fall,
soft and warm,
I take it all.
My shoe falls down onto the concrete,
I heard the muffled thud,
Then i thought to myself- sweet.
oh my god, like OH my god, like OH MY god...like OH MY GOD!!!
Supernatural's back on! I can't possibly say how elated I am!
:)
As far as I can say, Supernatural is the ONLY show that I am competely addicted to. If I miss an episode, I will be absolutely devestated!!!
Anyways, my weekend started on friday...
FRIDAY- 630AM
went to work, did my thing and went to study at Jo's and I am proud to say that I have finished the Cardiovascular system, both in a foetus and a neonate...woohoo...then I went back home to get ready. A few of us gathered to celebrate Lara's birthday with a surprise limo.
Kate picked flick and I up from my place. It has been awhile since I've seen them. It was like a big reunion. They had dresses on, but not me- I didn't have any of my dresses. Before we headed to chatt's house, we went on a bottle shop run...typical...
When the Limo came, it was impressive, It was white and when you went in, the insides of the hood was mirroed and lighted...it was gorgeous...
The first stop was to get Lara and her boyfriend; Sam from the Sea restaurant. The look on her face was priceless, she had the biggest grin the whole night.
We had the limo for about an hour and we drove around and to kings park to take some pictures. we had pictuerd of her on the roof!
Then- the real party begins-
The first stop: the Shed...we had a few drinks and we danced till the live gig started. I wanted to stay, but the others wanted to go.
Second stop- The Library
It was suppose to be fun! We wanted to go upstairs but when we got in and paid, we found out that the second floor was closed because there was a 21st...argh..annoying. There weren't many people. We stayed awhile- Kate had 2 tequila shots there and then.
Last Club- Paramount
We spent the most time in paramount, we went in when there weren't many people, we made the beelined for the second floor, it was empty, so we did what anyone in the right mind would do...TO THE DANCE FLOOR!
the centre podium was conquered by us! Oh yes, the DJ was hot...Flick and Kate were openly flirting with him...haha...and kate went for another 2 tequila shots. (btw, i had babysitting duty) Chatt and I were dancing and we real
ised that there were some blokes watching us...so we took it up a knotch...need I explain... We had a little semi-circle of bloke all watch...we knew, but what the heck... I was so busy looking out for all the other girls, making sure that they were all safe and that no sleazy rat try anything funny that I didn't realise that I was being "watched". I did eventually, that guy stood out like a sore thumb with the tightest electric blue t-shirt. I was weary, but he wasn't doing anything retarded yet..so it was all good. lyssa kinda sigalled with her eyes that he was coming closer...I felt him brush my back. I maintained a poker face and used my elbow to nudge him away. But as daft as he is, he didn't get it. I thought to myself- as long as he didn't grab my ass, i was fine. Lyssa (3 UDLs and 2 beers in) told him, "my friend doesn't like you, go away." I laughed so hard that I had to grab Kate to stablize myself (Bed idea) But other than that It was a great night, Kate disappeared for another 2 shots.
ised that there were some blokes watching us...so we took it up a knotch...need I explain... We had a little semi-circle of bloke all watch...we knew, but what the heck... I was so busy looking out for all the other girls, making sure that they were all safe and that no sleazy rat try anything funny that I didn't realise that I was being "watched". I did eventually, that guy stood out like a sore thumb with the tightest electric blue t-shirt. I was weary, but he wasn't doing anything retarded yet..so it was all good. lyssa kinda sigalled with her eyes that he was coming closer...I felt him brush my back. I maintained a poker face and used my elbow to nudge him away. But as daft as he is, he didn't get it. I thought to myself- as long as he didn't grab my ass, i was fine. Lyssa (3 UDLs and 2 beers in) told him, "my friend doesn't like you, go away." I laughed so hard that I had to grab Kate to stablize myself (Bed idea) But other than that It was a great night, Kate disappeared for another 2 shots. By the end of the night, Kate was off her face.
I don't think that you guys should follow in my footsteps and party before the exams.
SATURDAY 735AM
I got up after having like 4 hours sleep and went to work. I replaced Julie at my ex-boss'. It was nostalgic, famillar. I covered her shift from 10AM - 5 PM. you must be wondering why I am up that early... You see, I don't drive, so I have to take the train and take the bus and power walk 1.2 Km at least. On the train, I saw the lightning...and I thought "f*ck...how the hell am I suppose to walk?" I managed to stay relatively dry. It was fun, hanging out with my ex boss and her kids...and the power went out. Shelly was a total diva...we took the camping lamp and put it on. it took a couple of hours before the power came back on. The storm when pass up North and it drifted back for a little before petering out. I got back home tired but satisfied :)
SUNDAY 845AM
Being the most holiest person on the planet besides the pope of course, I went to mass with Nisha. I must admit, I drifted in and out when the priest was giving his homily. Once we were out of the doors, we prowled the streets for tucker! Nah, nothing that adventurous, unless you reckon the food court is a discovery. We sat there and talked about the most random things (didn't we nish) :)...
I'm ready to study now...
Saturday, May 31, 2008
Hello, my fellow muggers!
Joe, you're not the only one who is procrastinating. I too am finding every reason not to study. Most of my time is spent in front of the computer, playing with the smelly dogs, or sleeping.
Whenever I look at my textbook, I just don't want to read all those words or do all those tutorials that I never did during the semester.
Procrastinators unite!
Only a few more days; a few more long, tiring days......
All the best everyone!!! :D
Joe, you're not the only one who is procrastinating. I too am finding every reason not to study. Most of my time is spent in front of the computer, playing with the smelly dogs, or sleeping.
Whenever I look at my textbook, I just don't want to read all those words or do all those tutorials that I never did during the semester.
Procrastinators unite!
Only a few more days; a few more long, tiring days......
All the best everyone!!! :D
Friday, May 30, 2008
i swear min's posts are too profound for me.
besides her, isn't anyone else going to GOO or GAA or AWW or (AWW OR??) OMG at my kitten? people! she is the cutest thing in the face of this planet and i would know because she is. haha ... i'm just being a very proud mom. Taiyou is doing very well. i don't have a weighing scale at home but it does look like she's gaining weight. and becoming very energetic, spunky, cheeky and playful. she just tumbles all over because she has this big roung tummy which kind of makes her like a humpty-dumpty-cannot-fall that type of ornament. just this morning, she rolled right into the litterbox! haha ... and i caught it on camera.
i could go on and on about her but i shouldn't. this should be about me. well, sort of.
i'm PROCRASTINATING! you kno how BAD that is? when my exams are in like 3 days?! totally insane. i will have to so pull up my pantyhose and get it straight and right this weekend that STUDY is the only thing i will DO other than sleeping, eating and feeding Taiyou (she's a good girl; she's no trouble at all) everybody "+oil" (apparently, that's how fiona encouraged me; i think the expression is so cute when translated into english symbols and letters)
later we shall discuss our After Party ... best of luck everyone. you won't see me here 'til next Tue if i'm lucky that i don't have a concussion after the first 2 exams.
sigh. love, jo
besides her, isn't anyone else going to GOO or GAA or AWW or (AWW OR??) OMG at my kitten? people! she is the cutest thing in the face of this planet and i would know because she is. haha ... i'm just being a very proud mom. Taiyou is doing very well. i don't have a weighing scale at home but it does look like she's gaining weight. and becoming very energetic, spunky, cheeky and playful. she just tumbles all over because she has this big roung tummy which kind of makes her like a humpty-dumpty-cannot-fall that type of ornament. just this morning, she rolled right into the litterbox! haha ... and i caught it on camera.
i could go on and on about her but i shouldn't. this should be about me. well, sort of.
i'm PROCRASTINATING! you kno how BAD that is? when my exams are in like 3 days?! totally insane. i will have to so pull up my pantyhose and get it straight and right this weekend that STUDY is the only thing i will DO other than sleeping, eating and feeding Taiyou (she's a good girl; she's no trouble at all) everybody "+oil" (apparently, that's how fiona encouraged me; i think the expression is so cute when translated into english symbols and letters)
later we shall discuss our After Party ... best of luck everyone. you won't see me here 'til next Tue if i'm lucky that i don't have a concussion after the first 2 exams.
sigh. love, jo
Thursday, May 29, 2008
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
If I had to
I would put myself right beside you
So let me ask
Would you like that?
Would you like that?
And I don't mind
If you say this love is the last time
So now I'll ask
Do you like that?
Do you like that?
BREAKING BENJAMIN- THE DIARY OF JANE
Humans are curious creatures, they want independence, but they need everyone else. Can humans really be truly independent?
In every society, every group, every clique, there is politics, even in the most holiest of congregations. My mother thinks I speak like the devil when I say that. But am I really?
Am I the devil's child? Are my words wrong?
Whenever there are 2 or more poeple, there will be relationships. A vast array of networks. Everyone is selfish, they want to gain something- they will give it all to protect their interest. Whenever there is interest at stake, there is politics.
What about animals then? Where do they stand? Are we humans better than them?
I would put myself right beside you
So let me ask
Would you like that?
Would you like that?
And I don't mind
If you say this love is the last time
So now I'll ask
Do you like that?
Do you like that?
BREAKING BENJAMIN- THE DIARY OF JANE
Humans are curious creatures, they want independence, but they need everyone else. Can humans really be truly independent?
In every society, every group, every clique, there is politics, even in the most holiest of congregations. My mother thinks I speak like the devil when I say that. But am I really?
Am I the devil's child? Are my words wrong?
Whenever there are 2 or more poeple, there will be relationships. A vast array of networks. Everyone is selfish, they want to gain something- they will give it all to protect their interest. Whenever there is interest at stake, there is politics.
What about animals then? Where do they stand? Are we humans better than them?
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
Awake from the undeadly slumber
Back in black, I hit the sack,
I've been too long, I'm glad to be back
Yes I'm let loose from the noose,
That's kept me hangin' about
I been livin like a star 'cause it's gettin' me high,
Forget the hearse, 'cause I never die
I got nine lives, cat's eyes
abusing every one of them and running wild
'Cause I'm back!
Yes, I'm back!
Well, I'm back!
Yes, I'm back!
Well, I'm baaack, baaack...
Well, I'm back in black,
Yes, I'm back in black!
AC/DC- BACK IN BLACK
Listening to this song right now...isn't it the most beautiful piece of poetry?
I had work this morning 7am-8am. I just came back from the hospital, went there to do a manual handling training (more like man handling) anyways, I'll be visiting my little God dottie tomorrow. Can't wait to see her! and you too Yang! Ah well, I've got about just under 2 hours befor my next shift starts...I don't usually do the arvo shift, I'm covering for someone else. I would be at Basketball right about now. Ah well...
When I was at the training this morning, it struck me, that I really enjoyed what i was doing and that I am actually quite good at what I do. I like the 'care' aspect of it, I mean, you care for others, sure you get paid, but you earn much more than that, you earn skill, you have hands-on experience, putting into use what God's has given to us (our bodies), and you know that the people you help appreciate what you're doing even though they don't show it or they don't thank you for it, or reply with rather challenging behaviours (bless thoes working in mental care).
Oh God! I can't rant on and on about it...I think y'all are better off if I shut me cakehole and let y'all get on with it.
Row your boat out to sea and when you get tired, get your little dingy facing the beach and wait for the waves to take you back in. It might take 5 mins or it might take 5 hours, Anyhow, you'll get there...Just be careful, don't get caught in a rip.
I've been too long, I'm glad to be back
Yes I'm let loose from the noose,
That's kept me hangin' about
I been livin like a star 'cause it's gettin' me high,
Forget the hearse, 'cause I never die
I got nine lives, cat's eyes
abusing every one of them and running wild
'Cause I'm back!
Yes, I'm back!
Well, I'm back!
Yes, I'm back!
Well, I'm baaack, baaack...
Well, I'm back in black,
Yes, I'm back in black!
AC/DC- BACK IN BLACK
Listening to this song right now...isn't it the most beautiful piece of poetry?
I had work this morning 7am-8am. I just came back from the hospital, went there to do a manual handling training (more like man handling) anyways, I'll be visiting my little God dottie tomorrow. Can't wait to see her! and you too Yang! Ah well, I've got about just under 2 hours befor my next shift starts...I don't usually do the arvo shift, I'm covering for someone else. I would be at Basketball right about now. Ah well...
When I was at the training this morning, it struck me, that I really enjoyed what i was doing and that I am actually quite good at what I do. I like the 'care' aspect of it, I mean, you care for others, sure you get paid, but you earn much more than that, you earn skill, you have hands-on experience, putting into use what God's has given to us (our bodies), and you know that the people you help appreciate what you're doing even though they don't show it or they don't thank you for it, or reply with rather challenging behaviours (bless thoes working in mental care).
Oh God! I can't rant on and on about it...I think y'all are better off if I shut me cakehole and let y'all get on with it.
Row your boat out to sea and when you get tired, get your little dingy facing the beach and wait for the waves to take you back in. It might take 5 mins or it might take 5 hours, Anyhow, you'll get there...Just be careful, don't get caught in a rip.
Monday, May 26, 2008
so, min's at uni. hmm ... i'm at uni too! what a coincidence. well, i wasn't sure if i told her i would be at uni on which days. it's just confusing right now. min, if you're readin this while you're at school, i might still be around. i came to see jon for the last time ... before the REAL mugging starts. you have no idea how hard i'm gonna have to cram for the exams. i so want a HD for both units so badly because well, it's TWO units only. if teryn, alisa, fiona and joyce can make it to D's on 3 units, it's utterly shameless if i can't get D's for TWO. savvy?
another thing to officially announce: congratulations to me on my (newborn) baby ... cat! i brought her home yesterday after work at the clinic as the vet said there was no reason why i couldn't. it was better for her anyway. she is SUCH a DARLING. she follows you everywhere with her tiny little paws going pudd-pudd-pudd on the carpet and she squeals like a ... well, girl! ouch, my ears hurt a couple of times. and she likes to cuddle and curl right at the crook of your neck and rub her face against yours. and she has no sex-discrimination towards mankind. she loves both guys and girls, and probably gays and all. everything! everyone!
aaah! it's the perfect time to use min's decription of Oh-My-God's. it's the only thing i can say about Taiyou. Oh My God, she's just ... Oh My God. she is so ... Oh My God. I love her.
on the other hand, my 3 y.o. boy isn't taking to Taiyou so well. Yang doesn't attack her. he just doesn't like her. for her. she is in the big rabbit cage in my study lounge and he absolutely REFUSES to enter that part of the house just because she's there. and i'm not abusing her freedom. i just don't want accidents to happen when i'm not looking. it's not that i don't trust Yang not to hurt her but i can't predict what he will or will not do. so i'm just keeping them separate safely for now.
so, er, yes, i'm a full-time mom and nanny. i have to watch the kids at home while cramming for exams. plus i have to mix the milk replacement formula every 4-6 hours when she cries out loud. but other than that, she's very good. when she's full, she just sleeps right through to the next meal. not without some cuddles first, of course. she loves cuddles and being cuddled and cuddling up to anyone.
Yang's just sulking in the room for 2 days now. i think he'll come around soon. he's just ... what you call ... "jealous". for now. but i still love him as much as before. i told him that. i don't think he believes. but it doesn't mean i should go spoiling him with snacks and treats to make up for it. that's just wrong.
anyway, without further ado, meet Taiyou
another thing to officially announce: congratulations to me on my (newborn) baby ... cat! i brought her home yesterday after work at the clinic as the vet said there was no reason why i couldn't. it was better for her anyway. she is SUCH a DARLING. she follows you everywhere with her tiny little paws going pudd-pudd-pudd on the carpet and she squeals like a ... well, girl! ouch, my ears hurt a couple of times. and she likes to cuddle and curl right at the crook of your neck and rub her face against yours. and she has no sex-discrimination towards mankind. she loves both guys and girls, and probably gays and all. everything! everyone!
aaah! it's the perfect time to use min's decription of Oh-My-God's. it's the only thing i can say about Taiyou. Oh My God, she's just ... Oh My God. she is so ... Oh My God. I love her.
on the other hand, my 3 y.o. boy isn't taking to Taiyou so well. Yang doesn't attack her. he just doesn't like her. for her. she is in the big rabbit cage in my study lounge and he absolutely REFUSES to enter that part of the house just because she's there. and i'm not abusing her freedom. i just don't want accidents to happen when i'm not looking. it's not that i don't trust Yang not to hurt her but i can't predict what he will or will not do. so i'm just keeping them separate safely for now.
so, er, yes, i'm a full-time mom and nanny. i have to watch the kids at home while cramming for exams. plus i have to mix the milk replacement formula every 4-6 hours when she cries out loud. but other than that, she's very good. when she's full, she just sleeps right through to the next meal. not without some cuddles first, of course. she loves cuddles and being cuddled and cuddling up to anyone.
Yang's just sulking in the room for 2 days now. i think he'll come around soon. he's just ... what you call ... "jealous". for now. but i still love him as much as before. i told him that. i don't think he believes. but it doesn't mean i should go spoiling him with snacks and treats to make up for it. that's just wrong.
anyway, without further ado, meet Taiyou
jon's her dad (he is VERY PROUD *beaming*) min is her godmother (very smart; no money involved ... haha) apparently. and she's got uncle calvin chong and uncle chris khoo to spoil her.
Has he lost his mind?
Can he see or is he blind?
Can he walk at all,
Or if he moves will he fall?
Is he alive or dead?
Has he thoughts within his head?
Well just pass him there
Why should we even care?
He was turned to steel
In the great magnetic field
Where he traveled time
For the future of mankind
Nobody wants him
He just stares at the world
Planning his vengeance
That he will soon unfold
Now the time is here
For iron man to spread fear
Vengeance from the grave
Kills the people he once saved...
BLACK SABBATH- IRON MAN
It seems as though no one's come on and written anything since me. Ah well... we're all busy with studying and mugging, almost going suicidal.
Before you say (think) anything, I was studying, if you don't believe me, ask Cal- he's my witness!
From observation and input from certain prominent individuals (heehee) I realise that we all have our different flavours. It is evident in this blog. In general terms, You can tell who wrote the entry without looking at the author's name. To illustrate, if you looked at Big Jo's entries, they are long (very long) and phrased beautifully with proper punctuations. If you looked at Nisha's, you would see the phrase- 'keep the faith' and the word, 'awesome'- sometimes in bold or even in a bigger font. These are just the two examples that I am putting into this nonsensical entry that I chose to write because I wanted to reward myself for getting through a significant amount of material (note: I did not use 'a lot').
Ah well, I'm still in Uni, I'd probably make the decision to go, in say 3,2,1 secs... wahaha
Until we meet meet again to display our linguistic capabilities- when we are floating in the clouds with the moon and stars as our company perhaps...
Until then, I will continue typing my lamentation and the computer will show its magic, translating what I have written into the ambigious and needless piece of garbage that you have taken your most valuable time to read.
Can he see or is he blind?
Can he walk at all,
Or if he moves will he fall?
Is he alive or dead?
Has he thoughts within his head?
Well just pass him there
Why should we even care?
He was turned to steel
In the great magnetic field
Where he traveled time
For the future of mankind
Nobody wants him
He just stares at the world
Planning his vengeance
That he will soon unfold
Now the time is here
For iron man to spread fear
Vengeance from the grave
Kills the people he once saved...
BLACK SABBATH- IRON MAN
It seems as though no one's come on and written anything since me. Ah well... we're all busy with studying and mugging, almost going suicidal.
Before you say (think) anything, I was studying, if you don't believe me, ask Cal- he's my witness!
From observation and input from certain prominent individuals (heehee) I realise that we all have our different flavours. It is evident in this blog. In general terms, You can tell who wrote the entry without looking at the author's name. To illustrate, if you looked at Big Jo's entries, they are long (very long) and phrased beautifully with proper punctuations. If you looked at Nisha's, you would see the phrase- 'keep the faith' and the word, 'awesome'- sometimes in bold or even in a bigger font. These are just the two examples that I am putting into this nonsensical entry that I chose to write because I wanted to reward myself for getting through a significant amount of material (note: I did not use 'a lot').
Ah well, I'm still in Uni, I'd probably make the decision to go, in say 3,2,1 secs... wahaha
Until we meet meet again to display our linguistic capabilities- when we are floating in the clouds with the moon and stars as our company perhaps...
Until then, I will continue typing my lamentation and the computer will show its magic, translating what I have written into the ambigious and needless piece of garbage that you have taken your most valuable time to read.
Sunday, May 25, 2008
When all's lost...just ROCK OUT
Living easy, livin' free
Season ticket, on a one - way ride
Asking nothing, leave me be
Taking everything in my stride
Don't need reason, don't need rhyme
Ain't nothing I would rather do
Going down, party time
My friends are gonna be there too
I'm on the highway to hell
Highway to hell
I'm on the highway to hell
Highway to hell...
AC/DC- HIGHWAY TO HELL
For me, Uni was officially over by Thursday (woohoo!)
But the fight is far from over. Sometimes, I feel so tired (Don't we all)- all I want to do is jump in a car a go on a road trip, It's just you and the roads, the maps tell you where to go and you pray to God you get there. Sweet and Easy!
I'm trying to convince myself that I can make it through, but it is easier said than done. I want to study, put all my energy and effort into my units, but I look at what I have to do and I get put off by it.
I had a heart to heart with my mom just the other night. She asked me how my studies were going. I couldn't pretend anymore. I told her I was in the 'danger zone' for law. My grades are hovering at the 50% mark. Anything drastic can send me in to a comfortable pass or even a blissful credit. On the other hand, it could send me to the abyss deeper than any person can go or dare to.
The truth was there, the bare naked truth- I'M F*CKED
I don't want to waste amymore time and money, I want to progess, I want to be able independent. Right now, I'm looking at my peers and they are actually progressing, going somewhere. I don't want to be that person who's stuck- forever at that same spot.
My mom knows that I desire or lust, if you must say, for the medical field. My mom said that she spoke to Dr Lam (My pediatrician- yes I still get jabs from her)- and her advice was for me to finish my degree and when I'm done, to head to the US.
So many things went through my mind at the same time that I can't possibly write every single thought this instant. There was hope- a light at the end of the longest tunnel in my life. But realisation of reality hit me like a crack on the head. Think about finances, we aren't exactly billionaires. Think about my familiy and friends, hello! another time zone!
Truth: I am afraid, of starting something that I have no competancy to finish. I mean look! It's Med! It's not like commerce or mass comm, Med's almost like a priesthood, you learn it, live it, breathe it. Even if you had all the money in the world, there is no point if you do not have results to earn that qualification. It's called Meritocracy. I realise that I have been frustrated at myself, since the end of semester one last year. (You guys know what happened) I know I need to have the confidence, I need to find it, I need to be my gangho self again, a risk-taker- but HOW? I don't even know where to begin.
I thank God that Big Jo started this blog, this is healthy ranting. Now, I'm going to concentrate on studying for my exams. I have not given up yet, I'm looking at the rails that I am hanging on to and looking at the violent lapping waves a loooooong way down. Only when I have totally given up, will I then let go and get ready to die in shame.
Season ticket, on a one - way ride
Asking nothing, leave me be
Taking everything in my stride
Don't need reason, don't need rhyme
Ain't nothing I would rather do
Going down, party time
My friends are gonna be there too
I'm on the highway to hell
Highway to hell
I'm on the highway to hell
Highway to hell...
AC/DC- HIGHWAY TO HELL
For me, Uni was officially over by Thursday (woohoo!)
But the fight is far from over. Sometimes, I feel so tired (Don't we all)- all I want to do is jump in a car a go on a road trip, It's just you and the roads, the maps tell you where to go and you pray to God you get there. Sweet and Easy!
I'm trying to convince myself that I can make it through, but it is easier said than done. I want to study, put all my energy and effort into my units, but I look at what I have to do and I get put off by it.
I had a heart to heart with my mom just the other night. She asked me how my studies were going. I couldn't pretend anymore. I told her I was in the 'danger zone' for law. My grades are hovering at the 50% mark. Anything drastic can send me in to a comfortable pass or even a blissful credit. On the other hand, it could send me to the abyss deeper than any person can go or dare to.
The truth was there, the bare naked truth- I'M F*CKED
I don't want to waste amymore time and money, I want to progess, I want to be able independent. Right now, I'm looking at my peers and they are actually progressing, going somewhere. I don't want to be that person who's stuck- forever at that same spot.
My mom knows that I desire or lust, if you must say, for the medical field. My mom said that she spoke to Dr Lam (My pediatrician- yes I still get jabs from her)- and her advice was for me to finish my degree and when I'm done, to head to the US.
So many things went through my mind at the same time that I can't possibly write every single thought this instant. There was hope- a light at the end of the longest tunnel in my life. But realisation of reality hit me like a crack on the head. Think about finances, we aren't exactly billionaires. Think about my familiy and friends, hello! another time zone!
Truth: I am afraid, of starting something that I have no competancy to finish. I mean look! It's Med! It's not like commerce or mass comm, Med's almost like a priesthood, you learn it, live it, breathe it. Even if you had all the money in the world, there is no point if you do not have results to earn that qualification. It's called Meritocracy. I realise that I have been frustrated at myself, since the end of semester one last year. (You guys know what happened) I know I need to have the confidence, I need to find it, I need to be my gangho self again, a risk-taker- but HOW? I don't even know where to begin.
I thank God that Big Jo started this blog, this is healthy ranting. Now, I'm going to concentrate on studying for my exams. I have not given up yet, I'm looking at the rails that I am hanging on to and looking at the violent lapping waves a loooooong way down. Only when I have totally given up, will I then let go and get ready to die in shame.
Friday, May 23, 2008
blah blah blah-
i don't care already. i reserved the kitten for myself yesterday. here comes trouble and all hell is going to break loose in my life but whatever happens, i asked for it.
Taiyou is currently having bouts of diarrhoea although nothing serious. i can take her home any time but the vets recommend to allow her to stabilize (especially the diarrhoea) before taking her home. that means i have a bit more time to prepare for the arrival of my new baby ... cat!
i'll upload pictures as soon as i can take pictures of her.
by the way, have i ever mentioned that Yang has more pictures than 4 rabbits combined despite him entering my life 3 years later than the rabbits? the cats are going to beat the rabbits paws-down. i guess it's easier to take pictures of cats since they tend to stay still, sleep still and give you expressions of utter annoyance every time i shove a camera in their faces. yeah, that's gotta be it.
anyway, sorry for bombarding the blog with my personal internal emotional battle. so what's everyone else been up to?
ps. julia, i never got to comment on your post. hell yeah, you can BET i'll burn your ticket if you ever go back for a week again. only because i can't. haha ... just joking. anyway, we fall flat on our faces sometimes but the most important bit is to pick yourself up and get on with it. don't make the same mistakes again.
pps. julia again, are you going back for an entire month?! i heard.
Taiyou is currently having bouts of diarrhoea although nothing serious. i can take her home any time but the vets recommend to allow her to stabilize (especially the diarrhoea) before taking her home. that means i have a bit more time to prepare for the arrival of my new baby ... cat!
i'll upload pictures as soon as i can take pictures of her.
by the way, have i ever mentioned that Yang has more pictures than 4 rabbits combined despite him entering my life 3 years later than the rabbits? the cats are going to beat the rabbits paws-down. i guess it's easier to take pictures of cats since they tend to stay still, sleep still and give you expressions of utter annoyance every time i shove a camera in their faces. yeah, that's gotta be it.
anyway, sorry for bombarding the blog with my personal internal emotional battle. so what's everyone else been up to?
ps. julia, i never got to comment on your post. hell yeah, you can BET i'll burn your ticket if you ever go back for a week again. only because i can't. haha ... just joking. anyway, we fall flat on our faces sometimes but the most important bit is to pick yourself up and get on with it. don't make the same mistakes again.
pps. julia again, are you going back for an entire month?! i heard.
Monday, May 19, 2008
Weekend Journal Part I-
LOOK OUT BELOW! IT'S A BLARDY LONG ONE!
Journal: 17 May 2008
A certain 3-week-old kitten has recently been on my mind ever so often since Wednesday. The supposed she-kitten is a suspected domestic shorthair breed of cat, blue with white feet and nose markings. She infiltrates my thoughts in the day and haunts my dreams at night. There is nothing particularly special about her but she is unique in that very same way. The more she appears to me, the closer I am to settling on the decision to adopt her. I even have a name ready for her, “Taiyou” meaning the Sun in Japanese in coherence with Yang’s name, which means the Light.
Taiyou cannot have presented herself at a better time. Recently, Yang has struck us as showing signs of distress and loneliness about being left at home on his own while we are at school for most of the day 5 days every week. By evening, he is meowing for attention and cuddles, and sleeping in our laps while we scoured through our homework and revision. He is not an old cat preferring the tranquility of silence. He is only 3 years old with the behaviour of a kitten, craving and game to play with anyone and anything he can get his paws on. We reason that it is no wonder he is bored at home alone.
With another cat as his companion in mind as one of the few brainstormed solutions, I have been paying extra attention at the incoming strays of Ranford Veterinary Hospital when I go there each Wednesday to do work experience. Two Wednesdays ago, I was disappointed and relieved simultaneously when there were 2 stray kittens available: a 5-week-old tabby girl-kitten with a bit of fear-aggression coupled with nervous hissing when I approached and an older ginger kitten recovering from an ear surgery. Last Wednesday, I had the same mix of emotion when I saw the same 2 kittens – the ginger is now named “Collie” – and an adult stray. I have criteria for the potential companion: young, forthcoming and Fate, which is the hardest to measure.
Fate is nothing short of luck and pre-destined encounter. Taiyou met just this condition. When I was agreeable with the 3 strays in the kennels, I heard sharp mewing calls at the corridor. I thought it was a client’s kitten in consultation but there were no consultations at that time. Curiously I walked out to the reception area and saw one of the nurses, Emma, stimulating and cleaning the rear end of a small kitten – Taiyou. Apparently, Emma has been looking after her 24-7 since she was surrendered to RVH and it was time to wean her off the milk diet. Another nurse prepared a paste-like food – kitten biscuits soaked and mashed in milk – to kick-start the transition. Taiyou did not like the new feeding method much, having to stand in her dish and clumsily trodding on the paste while desperately trying to use her teeth and tongue to pick up the new formula.
Finally, I used a 1-ml syringe to fill up with the paste – an idea from feeding baby food with a syringe to BitBit and Rascal during their anorexia stage – and fed Taiyou. She lapped it up much better. While I prepared to fill up the syringe, I put her in my scrub pocket and she would mew loudly and attempt to climb up the scrub towards me. It seemed natural to me to keep my eyes on both the syringe and her, using my elbow to gently nudge her back into the pocket. That was the moment when I thought an alternate name could be “Pocket”. As she was fed more times and progressively became less hungry, she called out less and climbed with less desperation and perseverance. Taiyou eventually just hung out in my pocket quietly and nearly fell asleep in there before I took her back to her warm bedding. The next time she woke up, I fed her again in the same way with the scrub pocket.
I have thought of her so much ever since. I tell everyone how Taiyou is perfect for Yang and me. She is small and young, which is less intimidating for Yang to accept her. Where Yang is sleek black, Taiyou is a beautiful shade of grey with the same type of “boots” markings. She will probably grow to be larger than him because Australian cats are usually quite sizeable for cuddles but the gradual growth will not overwhelm Yang overnight. I am positive he will grow to love her as much as I do. She fits perfectly into our family.
Taiyou also appeared just in time for my non-school weeks. Since she is young, she requires attention for most of the time until she learns some independence. After next week, I will be having my study break, 2 exam weeks and 7 weeks of winter vacation. This is perfect! If I take her home on Friday, she will have no less than 20 hours of attention from my sister and I combined. Yang will give his undying 24-7 attention, undoubtedly, especially in the first 2 weeks. I intend to separate them by placing her in Rascal’s plastic bottom cage which is very spacious for a small kitten so both cats can interact safely on either side of the bars of the cage. 10 weeks of intensive interaction should suffice her socialization requirements, including some visits and sleepovers from friends. When she is large enough not to be mistaken for a big rat, I can supervise the cats’ no-barrier interactions.
There are just a few glitches with adopting another cat. One, my parents strictly said no more pets because of the added restrictions imposed on our renting of properties as did Yang. One cat proved a disadvantage. Two cats are going to be even more difficult to convince property agents should we have to move out of this Fraser Road North house. Clearly if, by some stroke of luck, we are able to purchase our own property next year, two cats is by far a negligent issue. We could have crocodiles in our backyard if we really wanted! The bottom line is that we probably cannot tell either parent about Taiyou.
Secondly, the property agent makes a house inspection once every 12 weeks and we only declared Yang as the only pet. By contract, we have to ask for permission to obtain another pet before actually obtaining it. However, the issue lies with if I declare Taiyou as another pet, word will get out to my folks. The above paragraph of consequences will then duly apply. On the other hand, if we did not declare Taiyou, she cannot be in the house on the inspection day. I considered the option of boarding Taiyou at the cattery for 2-3 days around the period of inspection so that the property agent will only notice one cat or none. The latter being the embarrassing fact that Yang cowers under the sofa when there are any visitors, especially men.
Thirdly, if I really intend to keep Taiyou hushed from my parents, she has to board at the cattery as well when my folks come to visit. Money should not a big problem because I will be working at RVH on alternate weekends with plentiful opportunities for more hours. I have to overestimate costs so as to have enough for the cats. Both Yang and Taiyou will need to board at the cattery early next year when I am in Singapore for the Lunar New Year.
Four, I also consider the feelings of both cats if I have to separate them on occasions. There are several possibilities. They or either could miss each other so much there could be depression involved which is difficult in animals to manage. Or they could spit and fight all over every time they reunite. This is a touchy issue as it cannot be accurately predicted. Knowing Yang though, I think he will not be the spit-and-fight one. It is the other condition and Taiyou that I am more worried about.
Last but not least, what if I get surprise visits from Aunty Valerie? The cat will be out of the bag, literally! News will get to my folks too. That is unless I can provide a suitable explanation each time she comes and sees Taiyou. Something like, “I am looking after it for a friend who is on farm practical for 6 weeks.” Joanna’s Believe It or Not!
I must consider my potential decision thoroughly and weigh my options carefully. I wish I am more like my sister – spontaneous and reckless. Sometimes, I reckon recklessness is good. Before we had Yang, I wanted every animal and considered every little detail. My sister, on the other hand, just picked up Yang from the streets and took him home to nurse his injury. Nothing else crossed her mind except the cat. If I could have just a little bit of that carelessness yet carefree mind, Taiyou is a definite shoo-in next weekend and forever.
However, I am me. I am Joanna Kwok. I am the rational and organized one. I am the responsible one. I am the one who does not like being unpleasantly surprised. When I adopt an animal, it has an owner for its lifetime and here to stay for good. I do not and will not give it up for anything. Therefore, I choose my pets very wisely and consider every little meticulous detail before opening my home and heart to it. From that moment, it is my responsibility and duty to look after it to the best of my abilities. That is me.
I did not leave Yang behind in Singapore for long. He arrived a year after I started studying in Perth. I had to leave my 4 rabbits in Singapore because Australia has an import policy against some animals, including rabbits. They had to remain in the care of a friend in Singapore. I do miss them terribly and my heart ached like a thousand daggers piercing it when 2 of them passed away early last year. So attached I am to my animals my folks always had a fear I would be a collector of strays or become an overemotional person.
My point is that adopting Taiyou is not touch-and-go. I want to be able to provide Taiyou with a secure, loving and forever home for her lifetime. Her life is in my hands and I would just die if I had to give her up. At the same time, I do not want her presence to be a thorn to others. I want others to appreciate her existence like I do, not as a hindrance to our lives. If I take Taiyou upon myself, I have to brace myself for half a lifetime of harmless lies to cover up for her until the time is right to admit what I did. Thing is, I have no clue when that day might be. If I decide to let Taiyou go this time, I will miss out on possibly the best candidate but kittens never stop coming because of irresponsible people so I will have my pick in future when the time is more appropriate. Again, when? I pray with all my heart that Yang is emotionally stable.
I can psych myself to think either way but clearly, my heart and mind wants Taiyou now. While I consider the rationale of it all, I shall leave everything to Fate. Will I see Taiyou on Thursday? What other hints will Fate give us about our connection with each other? I have seen one too many kittens before and every one of them I want to take home. But I always manage to convince myself otherwise and break away easily. But Taiyou is just different. She just appeals to me so much at the right time and place. Everything about her is just perfect.
Did I also mention that her date of birth might be thereabouts of my birthday? This means Taiyou can share my birthday with Yang! This is Fate, or perhaps, just my one-sided biased eagerness to prove that Fate is at work between Taiyou and I.
Journal: 17 May 2008
A certain 3-week-old kitten has recently been on my mind ever so often since Wednesday. The supposed she-kitten is a suspected domestic shorthair breed of cat, blue with white feet and nose markings. She infiltrates my thoughts in the day and haunts my dreams at night. There is nothing particularly special about her but she is unique in that very same way. The more she appears to me, the closer I am to settling on the decision to adopt her. I even have a name ready for her, “Taiyou” meaning the Sun in Japanese in coherence with Yang’s name, which means the Light.
Taiyou cannot have presented herself at a better time. Recently, Yang has struck us as showing signs of distress and loneliness about being left at home on his own while we are at school for most of the day 5 days every week. By evening, he is meowing for attention and cuddles, and sleeping in our laps while we scoured through our homework and revision. He is not an old cat preferring the tranquility of silence. He is only 3 years old with the behaviour of a kitten, craving and game to play with anyone and anything he can get his paws on. We reason that it is no wonder he is bored at home alone.
With another cat as his companion in mind as one of the few brainstormed solutions, I have been paying extra attention at the incoming strays of Ranford Veterinary Hospital when I go there each Wednesday to do work experience. Two Wednesdays ago, I was disappointed and relieved simultaneously when there were 2 stray kittens available: a 5-week-old tabby girl-kitten with a bit of fear-aggression coupled with nervous hissing when I approached and an older ginger kitten recovering from an ear surgery. Last Wednesday, I had the same mix of emotion when I saw the same 2 kittens – the ginger is now named “Collie” – and an adult stray. I have criteria for the potential companion: young, forthcoming and Fate, which is the hardest to measure.
Fate is nothing short of luck and pre-destined encounter. Taiyou met just this condition. When I was agreeable with the 3 strays in the kennels, I heard sharp mewing calls at the corridor. I thought it was a client’s kitten in consultation but there were no consultations at that time. Curiously I walked out to the reception area and saw one of the nurses, Emma, stimulating and cleaning the rear end of a small kitten – Taiyou. Apparently, Emma has been looking after her 24-7 since she was surrendered to RVH and it was time to wean her off the milk diet. Another nurse prepared a paste-like food – kitten biscuits soaked and mashed in milk – to kick-start the transition. Taiyou did not like the new feeding method much, having to stand in her dish and clumsily trodding on the paste while desperately trying to use her teeth and tongue to pick up the new formula.
Finally, I used a 1-ml syringe to fill up with the paste – an idea from feeding baby food with a syringe to BitBit and Rascal during their anorexia stage – and fed Taiyou. She lapped it up much better. While I prepared to fill up the syringe, I put her in my scrub pocket and she would mew loudly and attempt to climb up the scrub towards me. It seemed natural to me to keep my eyes on both the syringe and her, using my elbow to gently nudge her back into the pocket. That was the moment when I thought an alternate name could be “Pocket”. As she was fed more times and progressively became less hungry, she called out less and climbed with less desperation and perseverance. Taiyou eventually just hung out in my pocket quietly and nearly fell asleep in there before I took her back to her warm bedding. The next time she woke up, I fed her again in the same way with the scrub pocket.
I have thought of her so much ever since. I tell everyone how Taiyou is perfect for Yang and me. She is small and young, which is less intimidating for Yang to accept her. Where Yang is sleek black, Taiyou is a beautiful shade of grey with the same type of “boots” markings. She will probably grow to be larger than him because Australian cats are usually quite sizeable for cuddles but the gradual growth will not overwhelm Yang overnight. I am positive he will grow to love her as much as I do. She fits perfectly into our family.
Taiyou also appeared just in time for my non-school weeks. Since she is young, she requires attention for most of the time until she learns some independence. After next week, I will be having my study break, 2 exam weeks and 7 weeks of winter vacation. This is perfect! If I take her home on Friday, she will have no less than 20 hours of attention from my sister and I combined. Yang will give his undying 24-7 attention, undoubtedly, especially in the first 2 weeks. I intend to separate them by placing her in Rascal’s plastic bottom cage which is very spacious for a small kitten so both cats can interact safely on either side of the bars of the cage. 10 weeks of intensive interaction should suffice her socialization requirements, including some visits and sleepovers from friends. When she is large enough not to be mistaken for a big rat, I can supervise the cats’ no-barrier interactions.
There are just a few glitches with adopting another cat. One, my parents strictly said no more pets because of the added restrictions imposed on our renting of properties as did Yang. One cat proved a disadvantage. Two cats are going to be even more difficult to convince property agents should we have to move out of this Fraser Road North house. Clearly if, by some stroke of luck, we are able to purchase our own property next year, two cats is by far a negligent issue. We could have crocodiles in our backyard if we really wanted! The bottom line is that we probably cannot tell either parent about Taiyou.
Secondly, the property agent makes a house inspection once every 12 weeks and we only declared Yang as the only pet. By contract, we have to ask for permission to obtain another pet before actually obtaining it. However, the issue lies with if I declare Taiyou as another pet, word will get out to my folks. The above paragraph of consequences will then duly apply. On the other hand, if we did not declare Taiyou, she cannot be in the house on the inspection day. I considered the option of boarding Taiyou at the cattery for 2-3 days around the period of inspection so that the property agent will only notice one cat or none. The latter being the embarrassing fact that Yang cowers under the sofa when there are any visitors, especially men.
Thirdly, if I really intend to keep Taiyou hushed from my parents, she has to board at the cattery as well when my folks come to visit. Money should not a big problem because I will be working at RVH on alternate weekends with plentiful opportunities for more hours. I have to overestimate costs so as to have enough for the cats. Both Yang and Taiyou will need to board at the cattery early next year when I am in Singapore for the Lunar New Year.
Four, I also consider the feelings of both cats if I have to separate them on occasions. There are several possibilities. They or either could miss each other so much there could be depression involved which is difficult in animals to manage. Or they could spit and fight all over every time they reunite. This is a touchy issue as it cannot be accurately predicted. Knowing Yang though, I think he will not be the spit-and-fight one. It is the other condition and Taiyou that I am more worried about.
Last but not least, what if I get surprise visits from Aunty Valerie? The cat will be out of the bag, literally! News will get to my folks too. That is unless I can provide a suitable explanation each time she comes and sees Taiyou. Something like, “I am looking after it for a friend who is on farm practical for 6 weeks.” Joanna’s Believe It or Not!
I must consider my potential decision thoroughly and weigh my options carefully. I wish I am more like my sister – spontaneous and reckless. Sometimes, I reckon recklessness is good. Before we had Yang, I wanted every animal and considered every little detail. My sister, on the other hand, just picked up Yang from the streets and took him home to nurse his injury. Nothing else crossed her mind except the cat. If I could have just a little bit of that carelessness yet carefree mind, Taiyou is a definite shoo-in next weekend and forever.
However, I am me. I am Joanna Kwok. I am the rational and organized one. I am the responsible one. I am the one who does not like being unpleasantly surprised. When I adopt an animal, it has an owner for its lifetime and here to stay for good. I do not and will not give it up for anything. Therefore, I choose my pets very wisely and consider every little meticulous detail before opening my home and heart to it. From that moment, it is my responsibility and duty to look after it to the best of my abilities. That is me.
I did not leave Yang behind in Singapore for long. He arrived a year after I started studying in Perth. I had to leave my 4 rabbits in Singapore because Australia has an import policy against some animals, including rabbits. They had to remain in the care of a friend in Singapore. I do miss them terribly and my heart ached like a thousand daggers piercing it when 2 of them passed away early last year. So attached I am to my animals my folks always had a fear I would be a collector of strays or become an overemotional person.
My point is that adopting Taiyou is not touch-and-go. I want to be able to provide Taiyou with a secure, loving and forever home for her lifetime. Her life is in my hands and I would just die if I had to give her up. At the same time, I do not want her presence to be a thorn to others. I want others to appreciate her existence like I do, not as a hindrance to our lives. If I take Taiyou upon myself, I have to brace myself for half a lifetime of harmless lies to cover up for her until the time is right to admit what I did. Thing is, I have no clue when that day might be. If I decide to let Taiyou go this time, I will miss out on possibly the best candidate but kittens never stop coming because of irresponsible people so I will have my pick in future when the time is more appropriate. Again, when? I pray with all my heart that Yang is emotionally stable.
I can psych myself to think either way but clearly, my heart and mind wants Taiyou now. While I consider the rationale of it all, I shall leave everything to Fate. Will I see Taiyou on Thursday? What other hints will Fate give us about our connection with each other? I have seen one too many kittens before and every one of them I want to take home. But I always manage to convince myself otherwise and break away easily. But Taiyou is just different. She just appeals to me so much at the right time and place. Everything about her is just perfect.
Did I also mention that her date of birth might be thereabouts of my birthday? This means Taiyou can share my birthday with Yang! This is Fate, or perhaps, just my one-sided biased eagerness to prove that Fate is at work between Taiyou and I.
Sunday, May 18, 2008
Keep the faith
Hi Guys,
I think i might have fallen off the universe for a while with the amount of awesome assignments i've got to get passed off before the freaking term ends ... wait for it....
42 and i've only got 9 passed off...
Legndardary... I know but it's fun all the sudden waking up at 2am in the morning remembering that i forgot to do something- i keep telling myself that but's not working....
Yea it's getting closer to the end of semester so the pressures' building up but i guess pacing your self is easier said than done.There's only so much you can do before you hit a brick wall.They must say If there's a will there's a way for a reason right?
[ I wish I believed it my self but it sounds Awesome just to say and i'm probably succeeding in annoying some of you... strike 1 Nisha...]
Janan Tension...
Breathe k.. one step at a time...
Get over this term..
Vincent Van Gogh once said once said
"Great things are not done by impulse, but by a series of small things brought together."
[I love Van Gough - the psycho who cut his ear of and gave his ear to some prostitute i think it's so Awesome how they can quote him on saying stuff like this ]
But he's right ... this is just one small thing that your doing now.If it doesn't work out there's gonna always be some thing else to do.It may not be the high road[ the part most people travel] but it'll get you there.
I know you guys are all really awesome and you'll make it ...
Just have faith...
Now diverting to something more fun ...
Not Fair Min at least your name means something cool mine just means Night [IN Sanskrit] at least if it was Knight it wouldn't be too bad...
ABOUT Another Awesome Sleep over...
I'm free every day except from the 28th june to 6th july.
Awesomeness
Any way all you Awesome people take care and god bless don't stress too much...
The word awesome was used 7 times in this post...i've got to try bet that the next time round..
actually make that 9 .
AWESOMENESS
I think i might have fallen off the universe for a while with the amount of awesome assignments i've got to get passed off before the freaking term ends ... wait for it....
42 and i've only got 9 passed off...
Legndardary... I know but it's fun all the sudden waking up at 2am in the morning remembering that i forgot to do something- i keep telling myself that but's not working....
Yea it's getting closer to the end of semester so the pressures' building up but i guess pacing your self is easier said than done.There's only so much you can do before you hit a brick wall.They must say If there's a will there's a way for a reason right?
[ I wish I believed it my self but it sounds Awesome just to say and i'm probably succeeding in annoying some of you... strike 1 Nisha...]
Janan Tension...
Breathe k.. one step at a time...
Get over this term..
Vincent Van Gogh once said once said
"Great things are not done by impulse, but by a series of small things brought together."
[I love Van Gough - the psycho who cut his ear of and gave his ear to some prostitute i think it's so Awesome how they can quote him on saying stuff like this ]
But he's right ... this is just one small thing that your doing now.If it doesn't work out there's gonna always be some thing else to do.It may not be the high road[ the part most people travel] but it'll get you there.
I know you guys are all really awesome and you'll make it ...
Just have faith...
Now diverting to something more fun ...
Not Fair Min at least your name means something cool mine just means Night [IN Sanskrit] at least if it was Knight it wouldn't be too bad...
ABOUT Another Awesome Sleep over...
I'm free every day except from the 28th june to 6th july.
Awesomeness
Any way all you Awesome people take care and god bless don't stress too much...
The word awesome was used 7 times in this post...i've got to try bet that the next time round..
actually make that 9 .
AWESOMENESS
Friday, May 16, 2008
We've got to hang on by the skin of our teeth
Hey guys,
julia> I need to get 80% in pretty much everything if i wanna pass too...We're on the same boat girl.
Big Jo> I know what you mean by BDS (Babble deficiency Syndrome)...It's all in there...racing around in your brain..and you can't get it out unless it's word vomit. However, I think word vomit is not curing BDS...I need something stronger than that...I think I might need a punching bag or some form of vigorous exercise...forwards...sides...uppers...jabs...I dunno...everything!
Gosh, this week...I think I fell and went KAAAAABOOOOOOMMMMMMM....
no wait..maybe more like this....KAAAAAAAAAAAABOOOMMMMMMMMMMMMMM!!!!
Yup, that's more like it...
Omg, on a lighter note, I did the most randomness thing this morning when i was in the library. I was using the com, checking my emails, printing notes and stuff...just before i logged off the internet quota thingo, i decided to google 'Goddess Minerva' Really, I was that random...
I found out realy interesting stuff...for one, the Goddess Minerva (God no, not me!), her symbol is the owl, because she is the goddess of wisdom. she is the Roman version of the Greek goddess Athena (or something like that) In the Roman system, she's portrayed in a armour, as a symbol of justice...Apparently, she is also the goddess or medicine, peace, war, art, school, commerce and the inventor of music...Oh and the name derived from the Etruscans, they spelt it "Menrva"
And..this is the freaky bit..she was born from her father's head (Tinia)! Gross but cool at the same time..I guess you could say 'Good gross'...I dunno, I though I'd share something interesting like that..haha
julia> I need to get 80% in pretty much everything if i wanna pass too...We're on the same boat girl.
Big Jo> I know what you mean by BDS (Babble deficiency Syndrome)...It's all in there...racing around in your brain..and you can't get it out unless it's word vomit. However, I think word vomit is not curing BDS...I need something stronger than that...I think I might need a punching bag or some form of vigorous exercise...forwards...sides...uppers...jabs...I dunno...everything!
Gosh, this week...I think I fell and went KAAAAABOOOOOOMMMMMMM....
no wait..maybe more like this....KAAAAAAAAAAAABOOOMMMMMMMMMMMMMM!!!!
Yup, that's more like it...
Omg, on a lighter note, I did the most randomness thing this morning when i was in the library. I was using the com, checking my emails, printing notes and stuff...just before i logged off the internet quota thingo, i decided to google 'Goddess Minerva' Really, I was that random...
I found out realy interesting stuff...for one, the Goddess Minerva (God no, not me!), her symbol is the owl, because she is the goddess of wisdom. she is the Roman version of the Greek goddess Athena (or something like that) In the Roman system, she's portrayed in a armour, as a symbol of justice...Apparently, she is also the goddess or medicine, peace, war, art, school, commerce and the inventor of music...Oh and the name derived from the Etruscans, they spelt it "Menrva"
And..this is the freaky bit..she was born from her father's head (Tinia)! Gross but cool at the same time..I guess you could say 'Good gross'...I dunno, I though I'd share something interesting like that..haha
i hate wrecking my brains for a smart title
hello world! just to let y'all know that i screwed up for my math paper, got only a pathetic 12 marks. did some calculations and realised i've got to get 80% for my finals to pull my grades up! what joy. but i've only got myself to blame. listen up, i'm making a declaration. JULIA IS NEVER NEVER NEVER EVER GOING BACK TO SINGAPORE FOR ANY ONE WEEK STUDY BREAKS EVER AGAIN! you guys are my witnesses ok? please burn my air ticket or something if i ever announce i'm going back during my one week break again haha you get my permission now.
hmm, this coming monday marks the start of my "hibernation". that is, uni-home-uni only. no more outings, no more shopping! had my last 'proper' meal with *bubbles last night at nando's to save time *rolls eyes* did my hair at some chapalang nearby hair salon just now in a bid to save the messy entangled mane and probably give myself a treat but for some weird reason it costed me 75 effin' bucks even though it was sooo chapalang and i got quite pissed but the only consolation i've got is that my hair feels soft now :) i've also stocked up on instant noodles lots of apples instant soup frozen lean cuisine oh and san remo's 8 minute microwavable pasta is a lifesaver. i really mean it when i say i'm staying at home to mug. i NEED the 80%, and thats only for 1 unit, not mentioning 3 others. ooohhh someone just kill me please?
*bubbles is the one who sent me to jo's place the other day *blush blush*
hmm, this coming monday marks the start of my "hibernation". that is, uni-home-uni only. no more outings, no more shopping! had my last 'proper' meal with *bubbles last night at nando's to save time *rolls eyes* did my hair at some chapalang nearby hair salon just now in a bid to save the messy entangled mane and probably give myself a treat but for some weird reason it costed me 75 effin' bucks even though it was sooo chapalang and i got quite pissed but the only consolation i've got is that my hair feels soft now :) i've also stocked up on instant noodles lots of apples instant soup frozen lean cuisine oh and san remo's 8 minute microwavable pasta is a lifesaver. i really mean it when i say i'm staying at home to mug. i NEED the 80%, and thats only for 1 unit, not mentioning 3 others. ooohhh someone just kill me please?
*bubbles is the one who sent me to jo's place the other day *blush blush*
say your prayers-
i'm dying, people. i'm dy-ay-ay-ay-aying (pronounce "a" as "ah"; therefore "ay" is "ahye") i had such a long week i'm collasping from exhaustion. 8am in school every morning then reaching home at 5.30-6 in the evenings. 4 days in a row. i'm seriously on the brink of exhaustion. and i'm supposed to be studying for my upcoming test next wed and exams in 3 weeks! i'm gonna die. i'm gonna die. i'm gonna die.
but i have to hang in there. hanging by a thread but i have to hang in there. just 3 more weeks to go. just. THREE. weeks. feels like a lifetime.
hmm .. if a lifetime was worth only 3 weeks, do i really want to be studying for exams?!
random facts: it has been calculated that the value for the term "umpteenth" times is actually 27. and cows can't walk down stairs because of a knee thing. and an ant has the arsehole the size of which only a single atom can pass through at any one time making them the animals with the faintest fart sound.
i just felt like babbling today. it's a babble-deficiency syndrome. i haven't crapped (verbally; not the other end of the GI tract) in days. whoops! gotta run for the last class for the week.
love y'all~
but i have to hang in there. hanging by a thread but i have to hang in there. just 3 more weeks to go. just. THREE. weeks. feels like a lifetime.
hmm .. if a lifetime was worth only 3 weeks, do i really want to be studying for exams?!
random facts: it has been calculated that the value for the term "umpteenth" times is actually 27. and cows can't walk down stairs because of a knee thing. and an ant has the arsehole the size of which only a single atom can pass through at any one time making them the animals with the faintest fart sound.
i just felt like babbling today. it's a babble-deficiency syndrome. i haven't crapped (verbally; not the other end of the GI tract) in days. whoops! gotta run for the last class for the week.
love y'all~
Thursday, May 15, 2008
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MC is dedicated to create Murdoch College Alumni Association by fostering healthy relationships with sucessful gradutates (that's us!) Membership is without charge and it is for life. You will receive benefits and recieve regular updates of of the college via newsletters
If you would like to be part of the alumni associtation, please email alumni@murdochcollege.wa.edu.au to update your details.
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
Dazed and Confused
Y'all familiar with the song Dazed and Confused by LED ZEP??
It goes like this:
Been dazed and confused for so long it's not true.
Wanted a woman, never bargained for you.
Lots of people talk and few of them know, soul of a woman was created below.
You hurt and abuse tellin' all of your lies.
Run around sweet baby, Lord how they hypnotize.
Sweet little baby, I don't know where you've been.
Gonna love you baby, here I come again...
that's how i feel in these times, not excatly, but close enough...songs like these just give me some sort of comfort. Sometimes, the songs are so relevant, that i believe that the songs were written for me...
I've been thinking too much. Day in day out, in the shower, on the train, when i go to sleep, my brain still does the works.
What am I thinking, you might wonder. Everything and anything really. I think an awfuly lot about uni, job, money, future...It may sound as thought I am really materialistic, but it is really the opposite.
If i could live on an inknown island, away from here, I would. All i would have to think about it shelter for the night, fire to keep me warm, make sure food and water are available. All i do everyday, is unconvering the wonders of that exotic place, slowly, i discover a new part of the island.
And when I've discovered it all, I know, it's time to set sail and move on to the next island.
Call me childish, say I'm in denial and that I'm refusing to grow up...anything...
I know I'm not eloquent, not refine, not particularly gifted (in obvious ways), but I'm me
It goes like this:
Been dazed and confused for so long it's not true.
Wanted a woman, never bargained for you.
Lots of people talk and few of them know, soul of a woman was created below.
You hurt and abuse tellin' all of your lies.
Run around sweet baby, Lord how they hypnotize.
Sweet little baby, I don't know where you've been.
Gonna love you baby, here I come again...
that's how i feel in these times, not excatly, but close enough...songs like these just give me some sort of comfort. Sometimes, the songs are so relevant, that i believe that the songs were written for me...
I've been thinking too much. Day in day out, in the shower, on the train, when i go to sleep, my brain still does the works.
What am I thinking, you might wonder. Everything and anything really. I think an awfuly lot about uni, job, money, future...It may sound as thought I am really materialistic, but it is really the opposite.
If i could live on an inknown island, away from here, I would. All i would have to think about it shelter for the night, fire to keep me warm, make sure food and water are available. All i do everyday, is unconvering the wonders of that exotic place, slowly, i discover a new part of the island.
And when I've discovered it all, I know, it's time to set sail and move on to the next island.
Call me childish, say I'm in denial and that I'm refusing to grow up...anything...
I know I'm not eloquent, not refine, not particularly gifted (in obvious ways), but I'm me
another one?!-
i loved my weekend! it was awesome. thanks for coming over, people. it's been a while since my place was brimming with noise. the only sounds between my sister and i are pots and pans clanging, the running shower and snores at night. well, i'm the one who snores. not her. so, yeah, i loved having you guys over. i hope you all had fun too.
i guess alisa must have enjoyed herself because SHE ASKED ME to have another one after our exams. coming from alisa suzuki, i think that's a breakthrough. haha ... just messing. so min and i spent about an hour in the arvo ytd while suppsedly doing our revision to note down everyone's schedule after the exams. to name a few:
- vet students finish exams 10 june
- min 11 june
- joyce going back to sg within a couple days of end of exams
- alisa and fiona start farm prac on 21 june
- teryn has masterclass on mon, wed, fri and work on sat
- julia going back to sg for approx. a month around 28 june and exams before that
- nisha just needs to be notified, apparently; yay, nisha! :)
etc.
so we have a really tight schedule to try and fit in a 2d/1n sleepover at my place again. so people, tell me your schedules as soon as you can. and THIS TIME, a SLEEPOVER means you actually SLEEP OVER. haha ... pillows included this time too.
have a fab week y'all :) lots of love
i guess alisa must have enjoyed herself because SHE ASKED ME to have another one after our exams. coming from alisa suzuki, i think that's a breakthrough. haha ... just messing. so min and i spent about an hour in the arvo ytd while suppsedly doing our revision to note down everyone's schedule after the exams. to name a few:
- vet students finish exams 10 june
- min 11 june
- joyce going back to sg within a couple days of end of exams
- alisa and fiona start farm prac on 21 june
- teryn has masterclass on mon, wed, fri and work on sat
- julia going back to sg for approx. a month around 28 june and exams before that
- nisha just needs to be notified, apparently; yay, nisha! :)
etc.
so we have a really tight schedule to try and fit in a 2d/1n sleepover at my place again. so people, tell me your schedules as soon as you can. and THIS TIME, a SLEEPOVER means you actually SLEEP OVER. haha ... pillows included this time too.
have a fab week y'all :) lots of love
Friday, May 9, 2008
Thursday, May 8, 2008
man that sounds totally disgusting ...and i thought that people talking about sewage systems and comparing them to the yanks [okay maybe if i was a little bit more politically correct it would be the americans- but anyway]. was bad ....
The scarry part is when i was reading that i actually felt like i could smell what ever you were talking about....That's just nasty...
KEEP THE FAITH,
nisha
The scarry part is when i was reading that i actually felt like i could smell what ever you were talking about....That's just nasty...
KEEP THE FAITH,
nisha
arms and anals-
"anal glanded"; i couldn't find a better expression. how otherwise do you describe a dog leaving anal gland goo on your arm? very pretty.
see, i was doing work experience ytd morning at a vet clinic and was responsible for the bum area while a 6-month-old pup was put on a IV drip. essentially, i'm called a "bum-stopper" and i didn't mind because well, the bum can't bite. i'm quite safe until the pup freaked out about the shaving and catheter and wriggled - mind you, she was a stocky thing - and thrashed about a bit. my arm ended up somewhere within the vicinty of the arse and that's when i noticed drops of brown liquid.
too brown to be pee. too liquid-ish to be faces/diarrhoea. what do you know? it's anal gland goo. well, not jelly-goo but it was secretion. and the last times i heard about anal glands, they are pretty bad and whoa! smelly. and there it was, right THERE on my arm. Eeeeew!
i washed it thoroughly and sprayed Ooh La La! (animal deodorizer) on it but was paranoid about smelling the stench everywhere i went. so i had to change my scrub top too and neutralise myself with Impulse. it felt better but anal traces must have still been on my arm because Yang was VERY interested my arm when i got home.
while we're talking about arms, i got blood drawn from my lefty for a blood test for Q fever (vet thing) and skin test. it must have been Arms Day
see, i was doing work experience ytd morning at a vet clinic and was responsible for the bum area while a 6-month-old pup was put on a IV drip. essentially, i'm called a "bum-stopper" and i didn't mind because well, the bum can't bite. i'm quite safe until the pup freaked out about the shaving and catheter and wriggled - mind you, she was a stocky thing - and thrashed about a bit. my arm ended up somewhere within the vicinty of the arse and that's when i noticed drops of brown liquid.
too brown to be pee. too liquid-ish to be faces/diarrhoea. what do you know? it's anal gland goo. well, not jelly-goo but it was secretion. and the last times i heard about anal glands, they are pretty bad and whoa! smelly. and there it was, right THERE on my arm. Eeeeew!
i washed it thoroughly and sprayed Ooh La La! (animal deodorizer) on it but was paranoid about smelling the stench everywhere i went. so i had to change my scrub top too and neutralise myself with Impulse. it felt better but anal traces must have still been on my arm because Yang was VERY interested my arm when i got home.
while we're talking about arms, i got blood drawn from my lefty for a blood test for Q fever (vet thing) and skin test. it must have been Arms Day
Tuesday, May 6, 2008
Monday, May 5, 2008
movie sleepover -
day
Saturday
date
10 May 2008
time
Arvo thru' to Sunday
venue
Joe's house in Canning Vale
how to get there
Joe will text address for those who drive and text public transport directions for others
rsvp
Wednesday 7 May 2008 via text/call/infrared/bluetooth/really ... whatever as long as Joe gets the rsvp
food
Surprise! Dinner
BYO
Pillow, Toothbrush, Towel (if you intend to shower), Blanket (optional), Movies and Munchies for movie marathon
p.s. be nice to Yang the cat; he's very shy
Saturday
date
10 May 2008
time
Arvo thru' to Sunday
venue
Joe's house in Canning Vale
how to get there
Joe will text address for those who drive and text public transport directions for others
rsvp
Wednesday 7 May 2008 via text/call/infrared/bluetooth/really ... whatever as long as Joe gets the rsvp
food
Surprise! Dinner
BYO
Pillow, Toothbrush, Towel (if you intend to shower), Blanket (optional), Movies and Munchies for movie marathon
p.s. be nice to Yang the cat; he's very shy
Saturday, May 3, 2008
wondering pondering thinking
HELLO.. HOW COME JADE NOT ADDED. I TELL HER. I GOT PRIVATE HOTLINE HOR. ahahaha (with her) she is in room 4113 and u are more than welcome to burn her room. people visiting Sydney and wish to burn her room, i will guide u there but there is a contract to it. (you cannot burn 2060) ahahahah!!
Thursday, May 1, 2008
Hihi you guys!!!!!
Thanks Jo for starting this blog, it makes me feel closer to you all in Perth and wherever else you are.
As you might have known, I'm in Singapore, and I'm doing something VERY different from vet...I'm doing accounting and finance at Curtin. I must say, I'm really enjoying it. Heee!
But...I might be going over to complete a few units or for graudation. :)
Man, I really miss you all! Everything is good here in the extremelyyyy HOT and HUMID country. Seriously, you should be glad you are not here this time of year. phew!
I wish I could go to your partyyy! It'll be soooo nice to take the stress away; my current assignments are killing me!
Oh, I'm also giving tuition part time. It's fun and the kid I'm tutoring is really smart, which makes it so much easier for someone like me, who is not very patient.
And recently, a stray dog has made it's way to stay at my house. I never wanted to keep it, but how can you resist a cutesy doggie that is sooo obedient. hee.
Well, that's it for my very 'exciting' life currently. heee....
Big hugs for every one of youuuuuu!!!!!
Thanks Jo for starting this blog, it makes me feel closer to you all in Perth and wherever else you are.
As you might have known, I'm in Singapore, and I'm doing something VERY different from vet...I'm doing accounting and finance at Curtin. I must say, I'm really enjoying it. Heee!
But...I might be going over to complete a few units or for graudation. :)
Man, I really miss you all! Everything is good here in the extremelyyyy HOT and HUMID country. Seriously, you should be glad you are not here this time of year. phew!
I wish I could go to your partyyy! It'll be soooo nice to take the stress away; my current assignments are killing me!
Oh, I'm also giving tuition part time. It's fun and the kid I'm tutoring is really smart, which makes it so much easier for someone like me, who is not very patient.
And recently, a stray dog has made it's way to stay at my house. I never wanted to keep it, but how can you resist a cutesy doggie that is sooo obedient. hee.
Well, that's it for my very 'exciting' life currently. heee....
Big hugs for every one of youuuuuu!!!!!
whee! party -
the vet students had a killer-wheeler physiology/histology test yesterday. i'm actually one of them really average vet students here. like REALLY average. everyone else seems to be a genius at theory work. this is one of those rare occasions when i'd rather practical, down-and-dirty work than sitting around listening to rambling. but it's not to say the rambling is not important. i just wish it could be better than it is now. anyway i'm expecting Just Pass. i'm one of those people at the shift rightward of the bell-shaped curve of average grade students obtain. very sad.
anyway, we are in the 11th week of the semester at murdoch. our exams begin on the first week of june so between then and now, we should have a little get-together before we all go bald (hair tearing). unfortunately, we can only cater for the WA-brats unless those of you in the easter states and Asia want to come all the way for a quick hug and transfer. our apologies but we all do miss every one of you and definitely wish you can be here.
details are, so far, as follows:
date: 10th may 2008 (saturday)
time: TBA
venue: joe's new house (rented; not bought; not that rich yet) in canningvale
rsvp: TBA
we have DVDs to burn the TV. PS2, XBox and Wii for gamers (the Wii is a bit wonky for some reason but it works ... sometimes) BOP IT: joe thinks it's the coolest game on the planet. no singing required (unless hendric wants to dedicate his latest single) because there's a migratory mini hi-fi from singapore.
and how about a sleepover people? plenty of space but not enough beds. the floor is carpetted and i swear i will vacuum up nice and clean for y'all prissy brats to lay your delicate bodies upon. but BYO PILLOWS and whatever else nighttime huggies you need for slumber.
that's all the info i have for now. we can work out #1 priority: FOOD later :)
lots of love
anyway, we are in the 11th week of the semester at murdoch. our exams begin on the first week of june so between then and now, we should have a little get-together before we all go bald (hair tearing). unfortunately, we can only cater for the WA-brats unless those of you in the easter states and Asia want to come all the way for a quick hug and transfer. our apologies but we all do miss every one of you and definitely wish you can be here.
details are, so far, as follows:
date: 10th may 2008 (saturday)
time: TBA
venue: joe's new house (rented; not bought; not that rich yet) in canningvale
rsvp: TBA
we have DVDs to burn the TV. PS2, XBox and Wii for gamers (the Wii is a bit wonky for some reason but it works ... sometimes) BOP IT: joe thinks it's the coolest game on the planet. no singing required (unless hendric wants to dedicate his latest single) because there's a migratory mini hi-fi from singapore.
and how about a sleepover people? plenty of space but not enough beds. the floor is carpetted and i swear i will vacuum up nice and clean for y'all prissy brats to lay your delicate bodies upon. but BYO PILLOWS and whatever else nighttime huggies you need for slumber.
that's all the info i have for now. we can work out #1 priority: FOOD later :)
lots of love
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